On the 7s: Episode 6
Mental Self-From The Mind I Rule & R.I.S.E.!
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Here is subject to their
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approval and or disapproval so
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you must act accordingly. This
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will be.
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This would probably be. one of
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the last.
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Facebook lives that I have to
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give that disclaimer because
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once I transition everything to
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my own internet radio station.
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Yeah, we’ll be able to do and
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say and be free to express
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ourselves in a way that truly
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truly aligns with our spirits
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and lies with our souls and and
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we don’t have to necessarily
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fit into anybody’s box. You
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know all of us are unique and
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all of us are are individuals
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and you know we have divergent
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opinions sometimes. But just
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because we have a a divergent
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opinion doesn’t mean that you
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get to cancel someone. I once I
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started seeing what cancelled
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culture was looking like. in
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society. I just decided it
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would be best if I had my own
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platform and we have purchased
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that this week. so the more
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than likely Tuesday’s. call
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will be simulcast live on my
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own radio show. I’m looking
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forward to that there’ll be
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more announcements coming. in
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reference to that I want to
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take a week or two to you know
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familiarize myself with the
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softwares and the systems and
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the things that go on. I have a
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whole back office for the
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actual radio station and there
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are a lot of things that go
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into this other than just
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getting on this microphone and
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hitting live and talking you
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know I have to do some
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programs. I mean that’s a joke,
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I have to do quite a bit of
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stuff so it might. we might
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just simulcast and what that
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means is. The technology that I
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have it can split the video
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from zoom and just take the
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audio and it will stream the
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audio live. I might do that for
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Tuesdays but more than likely
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it’ll be. the first ones that
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we do in June. So I’m
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undecided. We’re not going to
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take a break. I’m not going to
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take this Tuesday or or next
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Saturday off we are going to
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continue to go forward because
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I was built just for. Work
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right here so I’m I’m very very
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very.
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Very excited so let’s start
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stretching it out. You know how
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we do it start with your toes.
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wiggle your toes right where
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you’re at. you know, get aware
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of your surroundings if you’re
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sitting in a chair, check your
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hips and your booty cheeks and
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all of that that’s touching the
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chair. just shake it out. Shake
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it out.
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And we’re going to continue to
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shake it out and we’re going to
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take five deep breaths. This
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will be deep breaths on your
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own. I suggest you take them
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all the way through your nose,
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hold it for. However, long you
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want to hold it and release and
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push it all the way out. This
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will get you connected to the
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experience and connected to the
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now and it will help to center
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you and help the ground you so
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I will take my five deep
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breaths while I continue to
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stretch it out, you know like
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the parking lot balloon that
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you see that’s just. Flying all
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over the place just stretch it
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out and take your five deep
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breath.
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Now as you become aware of your
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surroundings and aware of your
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personal space and aware of
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every sale that’s vibrating in
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your body right now. take your
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attention and your focus and
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your awareness to your crown.
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Chakra. Put your energy and
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attention and focus in the
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crowd’s Chakra and leave it
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there.
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Now push that energy and
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attention and focus down into
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your third eye Chakra and leave
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it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down over your
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eyebrows over your eyes over
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your nose teeth and chin and
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around and down into your
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throat. Chakra and leave it
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there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down around your
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shoulders, filling up your arms
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and hands and down into your
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chest cavity and into your
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heart, Chakra and leave it
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there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down into your solar
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Plexus Chakra and leave it
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there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down into your sacral
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Chakra and leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down into your root
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Chakra and leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down around your hips
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and into your thighs and leave
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it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down into your knees
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and leave it there.
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Push
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that energy and attention
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and focus down into your calves
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and leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down into your heels
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and leave it there.
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Push your energy and attention
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and focus into your arches and
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leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus into the tips of your
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toes and leave it there.
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Now we will move on to our five
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five. release breathing where
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we will breathe in on a five
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count we will hold it for a
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five count and then we will
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release and the release is on
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at least a five count, but the
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release should be everything
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that’s in your lungs just push
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all of it out energy and
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attention and focus is at the
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toes hearts and minds Clear
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breathe in inspiration.
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Inspiration.
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And release procrastination.
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Just push it all the way out
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put all of that procrastination
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out. Breathe in
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Hold courage.
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And release.
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Push all of that fear away.
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Breathe in motivation.
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Motivation.
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And release perfect
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imperfection.
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You’re good enough, your stuff
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is good enough. You’re ready
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right now. Breathe in positive
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energy.
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Hold that positive energy.
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And release positive action and
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effort.
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Energize yourselves
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Now taking your energy and
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focus and attention back to
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your toes push that energy and
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attention and focus into your
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arches and leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus into your heels and
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leave it there. Push that
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energy and attention and focus
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into your calves and leave it
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there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus into your knees and
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leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focusing to your thighs and
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leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus into your hips and
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leave it there. Push that
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energy and attention and focus
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into your root Chakra and leave
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it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus into your sacral
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Chakra and leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus into your solar
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Plexus Chakra and leave it
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there. Push that energy and
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attention and into your heart,
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Chakra and leave it there. Push
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that energy and attention and
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focus into your throat Chakra
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and leave it there. Push that
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energy and attention and focus
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up around your chin and teeth
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and ears and nose and eyes and
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into the third eye Chakra and
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leave it there. And push that
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energy and attention and focus
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into your crown Chakra and
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leave it there. Now we move to
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our seven seven. breathing
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where we’ll breathe in on the
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seventh, we’ll hold for a
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second we breathe out on a
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seven and we’ll hold that for a
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seven as well. Energy and
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attention and focus on the
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Crown Chakra hearts and minds
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clear breathe in your
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creativity.
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Hold your consciousness.
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Breathe out your confidence.
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And hold your commerce.
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Breathe in your prosperity.
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Hold your purpose.
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Out your positivity.
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And hold your positive
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production.
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Breathe in your commitment.
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Your consistency.
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Breathe out your compassion.
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And hold your curiosity.
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Now with your energy and
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attention and focus at your
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crown Chakra right above your
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crown Chakra. Imagine a light.
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It doesn’t matter what color
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that light is just see that
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light. Reach up in your Mind’s
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eye and grab a hold of that
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light with both hands. Connect
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with the light. Feel the
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vibration of the light. feel
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the frequency of the light.
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hold it there. Breathe in.
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now pull that light down to
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where it is covering up your
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crown Chakra pull the light
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down to where it’s coming in
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just the top portion of your
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forehead area and hold it
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there. Breathe in.
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now pull that light down a
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little further pull that light
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down to where it is covering up
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your third eye. Chakra pull the
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light down to where it is right
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in the middle portion of your
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forehead just above your
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eyebrow area and hold it there.
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breath in.
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now, pull it like down a little
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further pull that light down
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over your eyes and ears and
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nose and teeth and down to your
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throat. Chakra pull that light
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all the way down to the base of
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your neck and hold it there.
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Breathe in.
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Home
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Out
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And hold.
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Now pull that leg down even
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further pull that light down to
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where it is covering up your
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heart. Chakra pull the light
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all the way down to where it is
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covering up the middle portion
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of your breastplate area and
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hold it there. breath in.
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Home
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now push that light down even
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further push that light down to
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where covering up your solar
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Plexus Chakra push that light
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all the way down to where it’s
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covering up the top portion of
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your stomach area and hold it
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there. Breathe in
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Home
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Out
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And hold.
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Now push that light down even
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further push that light down to
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where it is covering up your
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sacral. Chakra push the light
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down to where it is covering up
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your entire stomach region and
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hold it there. Breath in.
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Out
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And hold.
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Now push that light down even
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further push that light down to
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where it is covering up your
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root. Chakra push the light
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down all the way to where it’s
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covering up just the top
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portion of your thighs and hold
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it there.
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now push that light even
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further down push that light
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down around your hips push it
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down through your thighs, push
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it down through your knees push
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that down to your calves
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through your ankles down around
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your heels through your arches
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and into the tips of your toes
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and hold it there. Breathe in
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Out
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And hold.
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Now look at that light and look
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at your body. expand the light
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out from your body to cover
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your mind’s eye view becoming
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one with your Mind’s eye view
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and one with the universe. Now
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with your body just as we did
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with the light expand out your
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body becoming one with the
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light and then one with the
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universe and then one universe.
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Hold it there. Breathe in
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Hold
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And hold.
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Now just enjoy.
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And as you become aware of this
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fourth level of awareness. you
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are in your own personal
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manifestation chamber. grab.
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everything that you see one by
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one and put them into your
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heart. Chakra no matter how
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many things you see grab each
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and every one of them one by
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one and. Them in your heart
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Chakra
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Grab that book deal. grab that
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grab that entrepreneurial
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thing. Your creativity,
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whatever it is grab it. and
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push it into your heart. Chakra
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now with your left hand, put
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your left hand over your heart.
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Chakra. and with your right
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hand, put your right hand on
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your right your left shoulder.
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Hold it there. Breathe in
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And hold.
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Now, just allow the universe to
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energize and equip and empower
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every one of those things you
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put into that heart Chakra.
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First with your body. contract
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your body back down to its
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normal size in your words, I
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view. With the light do the
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same that light back down into
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your body. Put your energy and
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attention and focus at the tip
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of your toes. push your energy
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and attention and focus in life
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into your arches. Push that
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energy and attention and focus
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in life into your ankles. Push
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that energy and attention and
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focus in life into your calves.
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Push that energy and attention
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and light into your needs.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus and light into your
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thighs.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus in life into your
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hips.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus in life into your
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root Chakra and hold it there.
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Breathe in
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now push that energy and
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attention and focus and life
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into your sacral Chakra and
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hold it there. Breathe in.
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now push that energy and
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attention and focus and light
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into solar Plexus Chakra and
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hold it there. Breathe in.
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now push that energy and
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attention and focus and like
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into your heart Chakra and hold
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it there. Breathe in.
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Hold
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Out
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And hold.
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Now, I push that energy and
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attention and focus and light
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and empowered and equipped
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manifestation. into your
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throat. Chakra and hold it
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there. Breathe in
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Hold
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Out
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And hold.
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Now push that energy and
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attention and focus in life and
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equipped and empowered
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manifestations up around your
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chin and your teeth and your
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ears and nose and through your
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eyes and into your third eye
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Chakra and hold it there.
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Breathe in.
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Breathe out.
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And hold.
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Now push that energy push that
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attention push that focus push
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that light and push those
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equipped and empowered
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manifestations into and out of
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your crown. Chakra and let them
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illuminate your mind’s I like
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the stars.
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Hold it there.
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Hold
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Out
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And hold.
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Enjoy this for a moment.
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Now, as we come back to the
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now. As we start to rub our
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hands together. locking in all
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of the cosmic energy that we
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just.
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We will
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take three deep breaths
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into the nose as much as you
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can hold it for a recount and
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release breathe in.
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And release.
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Breathe in
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And release. Last one breathe
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in.
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And release.
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With that we’re
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here and now
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we’re here in today. Saturday,
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May 15th. This is on the
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seventh with PB metatron. I’m
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going to open it up for a
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moment I have to do some
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technical. things and so I’m
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opening it up. anybody have
32:53
anything to share I know
32:55
definitely I want to hear from
32:57
Miss Winfield about her neck
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surgery and and how it all went
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so I definitely want to hear
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from her so floors open you
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guys.
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All my surgery, it was good.
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but he didn’t let nobody know.
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Oh,
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I’m glad you had.
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Yeah, they both were good, my
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spine and my neck surgery was
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good. I feel a lot better.
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absolutely very well, very
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good, very well. We’re we’re
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we’re very glad and and we said
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you know the positive outcome
33:41
energy and I know you was
33:42
alright because you was on the
33:43
book The next morning I was
33:45
like she alright. You know, I
33:49
was really hyper for a minute.
33:52
huh. Huh. What did I tell you
33:53
last time? huh that you had
33:56
surgery you need to see
33:57
something down. Yeah right.
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Well, thank you everybody for
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being here. I’m truly truly
34:08
honored to be in front of you
34:11
guys again today. and we’re
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just going to jump right on in.
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did anybody that was on the
34:19
last call to anybody sitting in
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that mirror and sit there long
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enough until your reflection
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ask you who do you know you are
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God blessings to all. Hi Joann.
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How are you Hello? Yes, we can
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hear you. How are you? How are
34:37
you? I’m driving so I can’t
34:39
hear Y’all. I’ll I’ll try to
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listen. I’m on my way to
34:43
Espanola and that’s like 2
34:44
hours north from where I live.
34:46
I’m going to get we’ll get my
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mother, but yeah, I did I let
34:50
go of Michael because I don’t
34:52
II. you know it takes two and
34:55
so I that’s how I ended up
34:56
thinking about something or
34:58
somebody who wasn’t even
34:58
thinking about me. so he’s done
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and then and then I started
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this beauty ritual. Thing about
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you know, skin care and all all
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that good stuff, so I won’t be
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so anxious when I’m when I’m
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saving money for the down
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payment or for the house. So
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I’m trying to reduce my anxiety
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or my worry about that. So
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yeah, it’s really good, very
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good and and you know this
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breathing exercise that I do.
35:28
in the beginning and any
35:29
portion of it that you need it
35:32
really really works if you if
35:34
you are feeling the. a panic
35:36
attack. And if you’re feeling
35:39
panicked or overwhelmed. it
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really really really works.
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Tell tell everybody about a
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couple weeks ago when I reached
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out to you and you were going
35:47
through it, You know what about
35:49
when we went through that
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breathing a couple weeks ago.
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Yeah I out of the blue. I don’t
35:54
know what happened out of the
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blue you text me something and
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I said I’m panicking and I was
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driving. I’m panicking and
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that’s what I’m driving. You
36:03
know what I’m saying. It’s just
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it’s just on it and it worked.
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I just went home and took a
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shower. I took a nap.
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Absolutely. Lo It’s all about
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the house. I’ve never had a
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house, so it’s like a talking a
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lot of money on the table. So
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it’s like no. I’m so excited to
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do this. I am so glad that you
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are you are here today. Joann
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because today’s. lesson. is is
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going to be centered upon
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something that you just said,
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and I’m glad you said it the
36:34
way you did. I wonder if
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anybody else. She said, I have
36:41
never had a house. you guys
36:42
hear her say that just thumbs
36:45
up in the in your chat if you
36:47
give me a thumbs up if you guys
36:49
heard her say I have never had
36:50
a house. today’s lesson is on
36:53
the mental Self from the mind I
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Rule and rise it deals with
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it’s connected to your third
36:58
eye and you know boiling it all
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down to. you. take all the meat
37:03
out of the pot and it’s just
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like our thoughts become our
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things today’s topic. To
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harmonize, which is bringing
37:12
balance to your conflicting
37:14
thoughts. I kid you not, I
37:18
didn’t I didn’t call you
37:20
earlier, Jolene and and get my
37:22
idea for this class but wow the
37:26
first one is is exactly. it’s a
37:31
negative narratives. We tell
37:34
ourselves become our truths.
37:40
The negative narratives that we
37:43
keep repeating over and over
37:45
and over again. those become
37:49
our truth. That’s why there is
37:53
an anxiety and a and a. A
37:58
nervousness of for you right
38:00
now, Jolene because you your
38:03
soul. is bringing balance to
38:07
that conflicting thought that
38:09
you just said the the what you
38:12
should say is, I am a homeowner
38:14
because you are now. I don’t
38:17
but I don’t believe that
38:19
because I got a page, you know
38:20
the money. it’s not paid for
38:21
it. I got a mortgage and I have
38:24
a house a physical house, but I
38:26
have a mortgage so. You know
38:28
it’s like another event called
38:30
Mortgage sixteen. 1600 a month
38:33
for one person. that’s I mean
38:35
that’s that’s a lie well then
38:38
well, then you’re not going to
38:39
be satisfied if you look at it
38:41
like that. Oh okay. if you look
38:45
at it as as just another rant
38:49
and and that you’re not a
38:50
homeowner that you haven’t that
38:53
you haven’t achieved a goal you
38:57
have achieved one of your goals
38:58
and you’re. Counting you.
39:03
narrative you see what I mean.
39:04
Yeah. Yeah. You are a homeowner
39:07
regardless if it’s today or 30
39:08
years from now. okay. you own
39:13
it. I bet you. It’s something
39:16
great. They’re not going to go
39:17
to the bank and ask them to fix
39:19
it. You got that right right so
39:22
owner who’s owner then they pay
39:24
for the repairs. You got that
39:27
right a negative narratives the
39:29
negative narrative can’t can
39:31
you guys see where I’m going
39:32
with this with the negative
39:33
energies that we tell
39:34
ourselves. Yeah, and they
39:36
become our troops. Absolutely.
39:40
It
39:41
it, it’s it’s amazing if we
39:43
all would just look back and if
39:47
we all would just become
39:48
mindful of just the stories
39:52
that we tell ourselves not
39:54
nothing that we tell anybody
39:55
else not nothing that anybody
39:57
else even tells about us, I
39:59
don’t even care. I really give
40:01
zero **** what anybody outside
40:04
of me thinks about me. I really
40:07
don’t care. It’s what I tell.
40:10
Self that matters, it’s what
40:12
you tell yourself that matters.
40:15
outside validation. What does
40:16
it really do for you? Other
40:19
than the puff you up for a
40:21
second and then you’re back to.
40:23
am. I good enough, you still
40:25
questioning if you still have
40:27
questions no matter how much
40:28
outside validation you have
40:31
you’re still going to have
40:31
those questions. It’s because
40:33
of that negative narrative that
40:35
you’re telling yourself
40:35
negative narrative, I told
40:37
myself. for a lot of years a
40:39
lot of years a lot of years
40:43
anybody else going through some
40:43
of that, and this is the time
40:45
for it to all to be coming up
40:46
anybody else want to share
40:47
anything about that the
40:49
negative narratives and that
40:50
negative self talk? Yes.
40:54
Absolutely go ahead. You know
40:55
what I’ve been going through it
40:57
for like and I hope I wasn’t on
40:59
you guys’s call but it really
41:02
dealt with me last night and
41:03
so. I’ve really been focusing
41:07
on my thoughts. And dealing
41:13
with my feelings, especially
41:15
like pastor, but I’ve been
41:17
feeling really anxious lately.
41:19
Mm hmm, and I’ve never been
41:20
that person like someone can
41:22
talk to me if their energy is
41:24
really high. I feel like I’m
41:26
about to have a panic attack
41:27
just listening to him, You know
41:29
I got you Yeah and I was like
41:31
what in the world is going on
41:33
because my daughter she came in
41:34
the room. She just hyped up and
41:35
I’m like, Oh. I ain’t never
41:37
feel like I’m going to have an
41:38
anxiety attack listening to
41:40
people you know, but. yeah,
41:42
I’ve been really dealing with
41:45
that that Self that. oh, yeah,
41:47
absolutely absolutely. Can I
41:50
share something with Y’all? Can
41:52
y’all see me? Yes we can. What
41:54
do Y’all see my face on a
41:56
mountain your face your face
41:58
your beautiful face.
42:03
Now, we see the mountain.
42:07
Isn’t that gorgeous that’s
42:08
beautiful? Yes, it is.
42:13
So that’s why it’s me for the
42:15
next hour, so I just want to
42:17
share that with Y’all so I’m
42:18
going to go back tonight so
42:19
y’all can see my face.
42:21
Absolutely absolutely that be
42:23
safe out there and be keep your
42:25
mind and your eyes on the road.
42:27
Please yes. yes. absolutely
42:29
absolutely. but yeah, it’s
42:31
those negative narratives. You
42:32
know II. There were some things
42:36
in my early childhood that that
42:39
stuck to me like glue that
42:41
really affected me and and I.
42:44
Kept repeating it to myself and
42:46
kept on just allowing it to
42:51
Self fulfill it just it just
42:53
continually Self fulfilled Self
42:56
fulfilled and it wasn’t until I
42:59
decided and that was in my
43:00
first Saturn return. between
43:03
the age of twenty-eight and
43:05
thirty. something clicked on me
43:08
and and when I had my first set
43:10
of return all of those negative
43:12
narratives that I used to tell
43:14
about myself, I just scrapped
43:16
all of that and I began to.
43:18
Tell a new story. Story based
43:22
in truth not in negativity and
43:25
not in a fantasy, you know I
43:27
began to tell the truth and.
43:30
the truth There’s so much
43:32
liberty in the truth. you don’t
43:36
get anxious about the truth you
43:38
don’t have to remember the
43:41
truth You know what that’s a
43:43
lie. Yeah, you don’t have to
43:46
you. gotta remember what
43:47
version of the lie you told.
43:50
Truth is always the truth and
43:52
you don’t have to remember it
43:54
can I share something
43:55
absolutely so I was having a
43:58
lunch or dinner. I should say
44:00
with some people last night and
44:03
I’ve been on this whole it just
44:06
kind of hit me a little bit
44:07
after my birthday. the
44:09
importance of loving ourselves.
44:13
And going back to what you were
44:16
saying about the things that we
44:17
tell ourselves the narratives
44:19
we tell ourselves. and again
44:22
I’ve mentioned this on another
44:23
call that we had the fact that
44:25
1 day I had this conversation
44:28
with myself and I realized.
44:31
What I was saying myself and I
44:34
came to the conclusion that I
44:35
was pessimistic and that I saw
44:39
life from the the the the glass
44:43
half empty and this is going
44:43
back to. I think it was Joann
44:45
that was making a statement or
44:47
was it Jocelyn. about not being
44:50
or being a homeowner. I read
44:53
the statement that water rises
44:55
to it’s own level, meaning that
44:57
when we think a certain way,
44:59
then that’s what we’re going
45:00
to. Is. And so that and what
45:05
I’m learning is that we really
45:07
have to be cautious about what
45:09
we tell ourselves and so if you
45:14
buy a home and you’re in the
45:16
process of buying a home, but
45:17
then in your mind, you’re
45:19
saying you don’t feel like
45:20
you’re a homeowner You really
45:22
should take some time to
45:24
address. that mentality.
45:28
Absolutely. And a milestone
45:31
going to the same thing. Yeah.
45:34
it’s like really being
45:35
conscious of the things that
45:37
I’m telling myself on a daily
45:39
basis. What you set into motion
45:43
your words what you set into
45:45
motion. shall come back and
45:48
greet you so what you speak out
45:51
of your mouth. shall become
45:54
your reality.
45:59
Our realities right now, you
46:00
know our living realities our
46:03
vocational realities all of the
46:05
things that make up our lives
46:07
are things are are things that
46:09
we’re first in our own heads.
46:15
You know what I had to. look at
46:19
where my thoughts were coming
46:20
from. absolutely and I think
46:21
certain situations in my past
46:25
made me feel a certain way
46:27
about myself, so I had to go
46:28
all the way back. to address
46:32
those things and then forgive
46:34
myself for thinking making
46:36
them, but you know for allowing
46:38
those situations that made me
46:40
feel a certain way. But last
46:41
night I did something I know
46:43
it’s going to sound kind of
46:44
crazy but not here I won’t I
46:46
hug you. Absolutely. was the
46:51
most comforting thing it was it
46:53
felt almost as if I got hurt
46:55
from like a father or something
46:56
it was listen. I’m going to
46:58
tell you guys something. the
47:01
love and affection you give
47:05
yourself is what you’re going
47:07
to attract back into your life
47:10
if you are not loving on
47:13
yourself how in the whole hell
47:15
do you think somebody else is
47:17
going to come and love on you?
47:20
Love yourself the the self
47:22
care. the the places on my
47:25
body, I can reach I my own ****
47:28
It ain’t as good as. That’s
47:30
going to a masseuse, but you
47:33
know the food that I eat. ****
47:37
the weed I smoke it’s Good II.
47:39
don’t put nothing cheap I love
47:43
myself and can I share one more
47:45
thing with misspell? Please do
47:48
yesterday when I was having
47:49
dinner, the young Lady II was
47:51
sitting across from, she said
47:54
that all of a sudden she didn’t
47:56
know where it came from, but
47:58
she realized that she wasn’t
48:00
loving herself the way she
48:01
needed to be loved and I said
48:04
that’s interesting, I said,
48:06
because it’s black women.
48:07
that’s not something we
48:08
discussed in our community
48:09
because we spend so much time.
48:12
Helping everybody else right
48:16
when you look up, you’ll be
48:17
like how did I get here and
48:19
it’s because we were never
48:21
taught to take time for
48:22
ourselves. so when you see me,
48:24
you’re almost 50 years old and
48:26
you’re like well, you Know, II
48:29
didn’t think I had an issue
48:31
with my self esteem, but then
48:32
you start looking at it and
48:34
you’ll be like maybe I got some
48:35
things I need to address here.
48:38
Absolutely. absolutely and it’s
48:40
not just you. And I’m I’m
48:43
grateful that I’m here. I’m
48:44
grateful to like be having this
48:46
conversation with you and the
48:47
lady that I was speaking with
48:49
last night because it’s not
48:50
that you want other people to
48:52
be in the same boat as you but
48:54
it’s it’s something when you
48:56
realize it’s not just you in
48:58
that situation. Sorry, mark I
49:02
just had no no no. no need to
49:05
apologize, Oh and while I see
49:07
if I can advise you to get one
49:09
thing if you can get you a
49:10
piece of rose quartz and keep
49:13
it close and utilize it and
49:15
when you hug yourself. it’s
49:18
changing my life. I keep a
49:18
piece of rose quartz with me
49:21
everywhere. I go. you know what
49:22
I do have one and I do need to
49:25
keep it close. It’s a little.
49:26
I’m telling you break it out.
49:29
Break it out dust it off. Look
49:34
look, I got a piece of rose
49:35
quartz that’s it directly in
49:37
the middle of my bed that’s
49:39
right in between the mattress
49:41
and the box spring right in the
49:42
middle of it. I keep me some
49:44
rose quartz around it. It is
49:46
vital and it ushers in love and
49:49
it keeps you in a loving
49:50
environment and keep you want
49:51
to love yourself. Absolutely
49:54
absolutely indeed and I’m glad
49:57
you. I’m glad you mentioned
49:58
that because the next part of
50:00
what we’re going to talk about
50:02
was where do those negative
50:04
narratives start.
50:11
Where do those negative
50:14
narratives?
50:18
You know we’ve we’ve been on
50:20
we’ve been on here before and
50:22
we have already talked about
50:24
this, but we’re going to jump
50:26
right back in it again, you
50:28
know. most of the original
50:31
negative narratives. start in
50:32
your own home.
50:38
Mine really did absolutely they
50:40
start in your you know your
50:42
parents or your close
50:44
relatives. are the one that’s
50:48
where the most.
50:54
Yeah and and you know. those
50:58
are the most cruelest ones
51:01
first of all because we don’t
51:03
think that you’re going to get
51:05
that from those who you share
51:06
the same. some similar DNA and
51:09
some blood, you know or or you
51:13
know two two grandparents and
51:16
y’all is part of the offspring
51:18
tree. You wouldn’t think that
51:19
that would that would happen.
51:21
however it. Is so prevalent,
51:25
but yeah the negative
51:27
narratives that we even as old
51:29
as we are now continue to tell
51:31
ourselves to begin at our in
51:32
home in the house, you know. a
51:36
lot of us, It’s going to be a
51:39
shock for for a lot of us to
51:40
admit that the first bully that
51:42
we ever dealt with was our
51:43
either our mother or father. Or
51:49
or a brother or a sister, older
51:50
brother or older sister. you
51:54
know what I’m saying. So so
51:57
where do those negative
51:58
narratives? start they come
52:00
from our peers like especially
52:02
you know when you’re when
52:04
you’re in school.
52:08
I know when I was going to
52:10
school kids used to be very,
52:12
very cruel. I can just imagine
52:14
as we evolved and all of that
52:16
how this has changed, but I
52:19
remember you know kids used to
52:22
talk about each other. We’ll be
52:24
on the playground and talk
52:25
about each other and it would
52:26
almost come down to a battle
52:28
Royal man. I mean kids can
52:30
really really really be cruel.
52:34
Yeah.
52:35
and and growing up
52:36
growing up, you know if if you
52:39
had. it really didn’t matter, I
52:42
was tall and skinny and had
52:44
glasses on so they called me
52:47
four eyes or a professor.
52:51
When they call me far as I get
52:52
mad. kids our peers you go
52:58
growing up through high school
53:00
and and your friends give you a
53:02
nickname, stink or booty or or
53:05
**** lo or whatever it is
53:08
because there’s something funny
53:09
that happens and it sticks with
53:11
you and you keep on living it
53:13
over and over you go to a high
53:15
school reunion class reunion,
53:16
and it was one of those things
53:18
that made you infamous and
53:21
every time you go to reunion.
53:23
they make you relive it again.
53:26
We’re also get our negative
53:30
narratives. They also start
53:31
television. movies. the media.
53:42
I didn’t see a lot of of.
53:46
Positive. black males role
53:53
models in movies or TV when I
53:55
was a kid I had I had to the
53:58
closest positive one. James
54:02
Evans, but James Evans James of
54:03
Florida Evans. They struggled
54:05
man. They struggled they
54:07
wouldn’t like I said they
54:08
wouldn’t like. Jim and Carol
54:12
Brady, Jim and Carol Brady was
54:15
living high on the hog. The
54:17
heavens they struggled. to what
54:20
what you’re just talking about
54:22
even again. It’s like you know
54:24
where does our self image come
54:26
from our self hate comes from
54:28
from images like that as well.
54:31
Absolutely absolutely Fred
54:32
Sanford and Lamont they were
54:34
struggling they lived in a
54:37
Junkyard live in a Junkyard II
54:40
was kind of upset. You know
54:42
good times and Thelma.
54:45
beautiful. She’s from Brooklyn.
54:46
I think from New York Brooklyn,
54:49
but she never they never had
54:51
her talk about college never
54:53
never. It’s like why and it’s
54:56
weird because my if my sister
54:59
wasn’t going to college and she
55:00
didn’t have that conversation
55:01
with me, I probably would have
55:03
never was interested because I
55:05
used to go over her the dorms
55:07
and she’s and if you don’t see
55:09
it, you know and it wasn’t
55:11
until the Cosby show come on
55:12
everybody. then the
55:13
conversation about college, you
55:15
know by by then I was already I
55:17
was already grown and already
55:20
on to some other things and
55:22
yeah, I really didn’t even
55:24
watch. I’m going to be honest
55:25
with you guys. I really didn’t
55:25
watch the comedy show because I
55:27
thought it was BS. it was.
55:30
Real, but can I say something
55:31
mark? Yes? Do you know I have
55:34
talked to more college students
55:35
that when that show was out,
55:37
especially a different world
55:39
more black students ended up
55:41
going to college, particularly
55:44
HBCUs Did. I say that right?
55:47
Yes? Yes, yes ended up going to
55:48
black historical colleges as a
55:50
result of a different world so
55:53
again going back, imagine how
55:56
we could change our narrative
55:58
if we stop taking these roles
55:59
that always continuously put us
56:02
in a negative light,
56:03
absolutely. But here’s the
56:04
thing too the reason why they
56:06
continuously show us in that
56:08
light because they know how
56:09
different things would be if we
56:11
have more, I had a more
56:13
positive narrative with regards
56:14
to who we are as black people
56:17
absolutely, so it’s all by
56:18
design. Absolutely absolutely
56:20
you know where else. these
56:24
negative narratives start and
56:26
and and you know this might
56:29
ruffle some feathers. I’m
56:32
outside of the church. But
56:34
those negative narratives start
56:36
in. our schools. Our churches
56:41
and other higher learning
56:44
institutions, but it’s subtle.
56:48
In those institutions because
56:50
if you look at it, the the the
56:53
the the negative narratives
56:56
that that start in the school.
57:01
Start by how many times You
57:06
said to the attention and it
57:07
doesn’t necessarily have to be
57:09
somebody doing something racial
57:11
to you, but you’re always
57:13
getting sent to detention
57:14
getting expelled. Do you guys
57:16
know that II? remember a study
57:19
from the state of California.
57:21
It was in one of those school
57:22
years twenty 2015, Something
57:25
like that that. Black students
57:29
were expelled at a seven to one
57:33
ratio to all other students
57:35
combined. of course, yeah.
57:39
black students. Those negative
57:42
kind of negative narratives
57:44
start when you just the fact
57:46
that you have to be sick to
57:48
detention. again and they make
57:51
a big spectacle about it those
57:54
negative narratives and then
57:56
you you start to believe well
57:57
**** going to detention every
57:59
day. I guess I ain’t ****
58:04
A school you know. I used to
58:08
have a when I went to Tulare
58:10
Western the the principal there
58:12
named Miss Wagner this white
58:14
lady and my homeroom teacher.
58:17
She was. I don’t know I had
58:18
straight A’s. I don’t know she
58:20
would just send me. I was one
58:21
of them. Kids **** a lot of
58:23
questions, though I wouldn’t be
58:24
funny, I was being serious and
58:26
this principle every day every
58:28
day in the office, she’ll be
58:29
like she she at. She asked me
58:31
what do you want to be and I
58:32
was like a better? And she
58:35
laughed, and she was like Oh,
58:36
you’ll never be that well, she
58:37
would do this every day and
58:39
this is kind of how I got
58:41
kicked out of school. I ended
58:41
up punching her in the face
58:43
because I was tired.
58:47
I got really tired of her
58:47
telling me what I couldn’t be
58:50
absolutely, but the cruel thing
58:51
about kids and stuff like that
58:55
at school is I don’t I don’t
58:57
think people don’t understand I
58:59
think the the trauma that I was
59:00
having at home. To me, you know
59:04
when it starts at home and then
59:05
you have to go to school and
59:07
then you have to go to church
59:08
and you’re and you’re catching
59:10
it from these places all from
59:13
every side. Yeah, it’s it has a
59:15
very devastating impact on and
59:19
last night I had to revisit all
59:21
those places all those people
59:23
yes, if I can recall them and
59:27
you know I had to just call
59:29
back everything. I said to
59:31
myself that wasn’t true.
59:32
absolutely. That was crazy and
59:35
I tried last night because that
59:38
had a very devastating impact
59:41
more on me than I thought
59:43
absolutely. yeah. absolutely
59:47
absolutely. Can I say
59:47
something? yes, Of course, you
59:49
are going to be so happy you
59:51
had that that moment it
59:52
probably didn’t feel like it in
59:54
the moment and it may not even
59:55
feel like it now, but like part
59:58
of us healing is part of going
59:59
through that trauma again. Yes,
60:02
yes and yes. I’ve been going
60:05
through some things too. I’ll
60:06
just be sitting here and all of
60:07
a sudden these feelings will
60:08
come up and I’m like where did
60:09
that come from and? instead of
60:13
like sweeping it under the rug
60:15
or pretending like I’m okay
60:17
when I’m clearly not okay. I’m
60:19
dealing with these issues I
60:20
want to cry about it. I’ll talk
60:23
about it, but I sit and I and
60:25
my own comfort. until a
60:28
solution comes up. Absolutely I
60:29
think that’s a big key to is
60:32
dealing with it. Yes I see.
60:34
Especially it’s like even for
60:37
black people that we’re taught
60:38
to always be strong about stuff
60:41
and never really deal with it
60:43
or never experience you know
60:46
the emotion of it all yes, so
60:49
we just kind of sweep it under
60:50
the rug and I keep that strong
60:52
look and not realize he’s doing
60:54
more harm than anything.
60:57
Absolutely absolutely
60:59
absolutely and it is vitally
61:03
important that. You. yourself.
61:08
catch yourself with the
61:10
negative narrative or a
61:12
negative self talk that you
61:14
check yourself, but you damn
61:16
sure better. Check anybody else
61:17
that come at you with some
61:18
negative narratives. that is
61:20
not the truth. Oh yeah. I’m a
61:25
firm believer and I don’t let
61:26
anyone just talk to me any type
61:28
of way right. I’m I’m yeah you
61:32
have you have the freedom of
61:34
free speech and I have the
61:35
freedom to punch you in your
61:37
mouth. If you say something,
61:38
Oh, yeah. I have a funny story.
61:41
My daughter is mad at me again.
61:43
Okay. Okay. I’m sorry if I if I
61:47
just cut off, I’m sorry, no no
61:49
no go ahead my my III texted my
61:52
daughter, I said how you doing
61:55
what’s going on what’s up you
61:56
know and and it maybe it was my
61:58
fault but she she said it she
62:02
responded to say what with a
62:03
question mark. I said II.
62:11
And I would just send I would
62:13
send nothing bye and and keep
62:16
it pushing. Yeah. Yeah. That’s
62:19
oh. that’s that’s a foul right
62:21
there. That’s that’s pretty
62:22
foul. That’s pretty funny. is
62:24
it in all caps though. She back
62:28
on on mute, Oh, if it’s in all
62:30
caps and she’s yelling. but if
62:32
it’s not, I said just be asking
62:35
what like but I guess you can’t
62:36
because I can’t say what to my
62:38
mom like that so I look I’ve
62:39
got. I’ve got my mouth slapped
62:42
off and my grandmother would’ve
62:43
said something to me and I
62:45
would’ve said what I’ve got a
62:47
hit in the mouth with
62:49
something. Yeah. Yeah, I can I
62:52
can do that. she studied too
62:54
and I and the last time I
62:55
slapped my daughter in the
62:56
mouth. she was like
62:57
twenty-three but now when she
62:58
still. That sense, you know
63:01
sense that she can do that and
63:03
when I tell her that she’d be
63:05
like, oh, oh that’s blah blah
63:07
blah blah blah blah, I said,
63:08
Just you know, no no, I don’t
63:10
care. Yeah. you’re not going to
63:11
talk to. I don’t care who you
63:12
are, you’re not going to. I
63:15
don’t talk to me any type of
63:16
way and yeah and no one gets a
63:19
pass The last pass somebody got
63:22
was December 31st 2015 since
63:26
then, nobody gets a pass. Did
63:27
you say some crazy **** to me?
63:29
I’m going to check you? yes I.
63:32
That’s just how it is. That’s
63:34
just how it is. You do not have
63:35
a right to say to disrespect me
63:37
at all, You got a right to say
63:39
what you want, but you don’t
63:40
have a right to disrespect me.
63:43
I have a right to to respond.
63:44
Yes ma’am. I’m sorry pardon me
63:47
for speaking over. for it’s I
63:51
was invited here by a friend. I
63:52
don’t see her here, but I’m
63:53
glad she invited me. It’s a
63:56
pleasure being here and in the
63:58
company. Thank you, I hope to
64:00
continue to follow you when you
64:01
have your own program.
64:03
Absolutely. I put you in the
64:05
mailing list. You know just
64:08
I’ve just realized something in
64:10
my children are in their 30s
64:12
and 40s. And I’ve realized
64:17
something that the older. that
64:20
I have. gotten and I’ve grown
64:24
and committed. To expanding my
64:29
consciousness, mm hmm it has
64:32
shifted. one of my
64:35
relationships with them. We
64:36
can.
64:42
And and at this point. The
64:46
sharing of the consciousness
64:48
and and and the way we are with
64:50
each other, even the way we
64:52
move through.
64:55
Seeing
64:55
things differently, Yes,
64:57
you know or even in those
64:59
moments when you know we may
65:02
step on a toe even that is
65:04
different. Yes. And so now, I’m
65:06
finding that although you know
65:08
I am. Their mother, I am the
65:12
elder on my dad’s side the
65:14
family. I’m now in the
65:15
matriarch of of my family tree.
65:18
I’m sixty-five, but it’s like
65:20
you know my my father and my
65:22
aunts and uncles and all of
65:24
those folks passed real young
65:26
so mm hmm you know it’s like I
65:29
am very conscious of doing my
65:32
work. Yes because I got not
65:34
only these children, but these
65:36
grandchildren these nieces and
65:38
nephews. Who are holding me
65:41
accountable, not by anything
65:43
they’re saying, but just in the
65:44
look in their eyes, Yes, for
65:47
being who I say I am and they
65:50
come in all these crystals and
65:53
these. all the stuff and so I
65:56
know and I know they’re
65:57
watching by their by their
65:59
questions by the way they be
66:00
with me by the way they talk
66:01
with me the stuff they ask me
66:04
about that. I know they’re not
66:05
asking my children. I’m talking
66:07
talking about. That’s for
66:08
children, nieces and nephews.
66:09
So I’m really hesitant. Of
66:12
that, and you know.
66:16
My
66:17
intention is to to continue
66:19
to grow. and to hold that
66:21
because it’s it’s it’s one
66:24
thing to be an elder in your
66:27
family, you know and a lot of
66:29
people I recognize have coming
66:32
through what we’ve just come
66:33
through all of a sudden, we’re
66:34
trusting the roads are becoming
66:37
the patriarchs and matriarchs
66:37
over there, families
66:40
absolutely. but when we’re
66:41
doing this and we also claimed
66:42
to be quote unquote spiritual,
66:44
you know with the. Great Big
66:48
one out right. Yeah like
66:49
Superman. right. Yeah. we like
66:52
it’s a responsibility to and so
66:54
I’m aware every time whatever
66:57
showing up in my environment.
67:01
Cute and sometimes I feel like
67:05
I should have the muscles of
67:06
Atlas because it’s a holding it
67:08
up and being about my practices
67:10
every day some days I get
67:11
tired. Oh every day every day.
67:14
It’s just not something so I
67:16
just want to yeah, I just want
67:17
to share that in there like
67:19
whoa. Yeah, we appreciate it.
67:20
Alright so especially now
67:22
moving through what we’re
67:23
moving through and moving
67:24
through what we’re about to go
67:25
through is absolutely I
67:27
appreciate circles like this so
67:29
much because we’re holding up a
67:30
lot. Yes we are and and we need
67:33
we need a space to. Come to so
67:36
that we can get individually
67:39
energized and individually
67:40
revived and individually
67:43
equipped, and that’s what this
67:44
is about. II. You know I send
67:47
you a complete comfort energy
67:49
and positive outcome, energy
67:52
and peace of mind energy, but I
67:55
also I also send you this this
67:57
this edict that your grandkids
68:00
and and the kids and and and
68:03
all of. Yeah, they’re they’re
68:06
looking at you and and holding
68:08
you up, but you gotta look at
68:10
you yourself and you gotta it’s
68:12
it’s it’s you and you and and
68:15
it’s that’s right and you what
68:17
once you take care of you. I’m
68:20
not saying that you won’t care
68:22
about somebody else. I’m saying
68:24
you got to make you have to
68:26
start treating and this is just
68:28
coming to me specifically for
68:30
you. Oh man you have to start
68:33
treating yourself like. Treat
68:38
the most important person in
68:40
your life. whoever is most
68:42
important to you right now you
68:45
have to treat yourself better
68:48
than you treat them. That’s
68:50
what’s it’s coming heavy. you
68:53
better teach it’s coming heavy
68:54
right now. It’s coming heavy
68:56
right now you have to treat
69:00
yourself better than whoever it
69:02
is that you treat the best you
69:04
gotta treat. Better than that.
69:07
from now on this is not just a
69:10
temporary thing. Do it one time
69:12
get over get a little feeling
69:13
and then it’s done and you can
69:15
go back to. no. This is from
69:18
now on you have to make your
69:21
self care your self love your
69:24
health Your wellness your
69:26
mental your emotional or
69:28
physical well-being. you have
69:29
to make that the number one
69:30
priority and then everybody
69:32
else can get the scraps in your
69:35
scraps are great for everybody
69:37
else. You are taking care of
69:39
yourself on the seventh you got
69:42
to you. You you, you gotta you
69:46
got a ways to go here and you
69:49
got more than just your kids
69:50
and the grandkids to you. You
69:53
got a whole community that is
69:56
going to be birthed out of you.
69:58
So yeah. Yeah. it’s about you
70:01
right now. That’s why he was
70:03
sent over here because it’s
70:05
about you. I love that you love
70:08
all the other folks, but I want
70:09
you to love you like you love
70:10
you like you love them. Thank
70:13
you. Thank you for that. you’re
70:17
the second person in about 2
70:18
weeks have told me that so
70:19
thank you. thank you. I love
70:21
you for that. You are most
70:23
welcome. You are most welcome
70:25
and finally I’m going to run on
70:27
to this. So the negative
70:30
narratives we tell ourselves
70:32
become our truths and then we
70:34
go through where do they begin?
70:37
Then we get to the point of
70:38
okay now that we we have
70:41
identified and we know where to
70:42
begin what do we do what we
70:43
going to do We’re going to keep
70:46
repeating them or are we going
70:46
to change the story you tell
70:49
about yourself to yourself.
70:54
Because that’s where it starts
70:56
it don’t matter like I said it
70:58
don’t matter what nobody else
70:59
is people people been talking
71:02
about me since I was a kid. and
71:05
I always look at it like this.
71:07
you know you got if you got ten
71:08
people talking about you. Some
71:10
of it is true and some of it
71:11
ain’t. And I’m okay, I don’t
71:17
care what anybody outside of
71:19
me, says or thinks I know who I
71:23
am I know who I am the people
71:26
in my circle, They know who I
71:29
am anybody else other than me
71:31
in my immediate circle doesn’t
71:33
matter what they think. in the
71:36
grand scheme of things. Because
71:39
I tell myself who I am, I’ve
71:42
I’ve thought very highly of
71:43
myself since I was 16 years
71:45
old.
71:48
Not that I thought I was better
71:50
than anybody else. But I
71:53
thought very highly of myself,
71:55
you guys see what I’m saying
71:57
right here. I don’t I’ve never
71:59
thought I was better than
72:01
anyone but I’ve always known. I
72:04
was pretty damn good. You see
72:06
what I’m saying. I’m not going
72:09
to say oh all of us. Oh I’m
72:12
making no no. no no. I’m pretty
72:15
damn good and I think highly of
72:19
myself. I don’t care what
72:21
nobody else. Think of me I’ve
72:23
always thought highly. When I
72:27
was doing great in school, I
72:29
thought highly of myself when I
72:31
was smoking crack walking the
72:33
street. I thought highly of
72:35
myself. and everything I’ve
72:38
done since in this thus and in
72:41
between.
72:45
Change the story you tell about
72:48
yourself to yourself. That’s
72:51
where it starts once you change
72:54
story and change what you’re
72:55
telling yourself about
72:57
yourself. guess what the
72:59
outside everything else starts
72:59
to manifest and organically
73:01
Just change Who are you? It’s
73:05
amazing how that happened
73:07
Change your thoughts your
73:08
environment changes change how
73:10
you see something it’ll change
73:11
how you change your perception
73:13
You want to change your
73:14
thoughts change your
73:15
perception. It was just as easy
73:18
from going from half glass half
73:19
empty to half full still the
73:22
same. I ask you a question.
73:23
absolutely what would be like
73:26
one suggestion that you would
73:27
give us to start with. okay I
73:31
would I would start off.
73:37
Speaking positive and in the
73:40
affirmative and what I mean by
73:42
that do not concentrate on what
73:44
you do not have what you
73:47
haven’t completed. what is not
73:49
finished and what you are
73:51
disappointed about focus on
73:54
your victories every day each
73:55
one of us does at least one
73:59
thing that is a victory
74:02
celebrate your victory each and
74:04
every. No matter how big or
74:07
small and start telling
74:10
yourself that you are worthy.
74:11
you are equipped you are
74:14
enough. I am smart, I am the II
74:18
graduated from Cal State
74:19
Dominguez Hills with a degree I
74:23
have worked for this company
74:27
for 22 years. I have I
74:29
accomplished this in school I
74:31
have done this in my career. I
74:36
am the **** how about I start
74:37
with that just look in the
74:39
mirror and tell yourself you’re
74:40
the **** I am bomb diggity. I’m
74:45
all that and a bag of chips.
74:47
I’m the combo meal. Biggie
74:49
sized yes, not biggie. whatever
74:54
whatever it is self talk, I
74:55
just walk around in the
74:57
morning. I just keep telling
74:58
myself I Amy B metatron on the
75:00
sevens I have pyr B meditate on
75:03
the sides because I know who
75:05
the fullness of Piper’s
75:07
Metatron is so if I just keep
75:09
saying that all day, I metatron
75:10
on the sevens on the seventh on
75:13
the seventh on the seventh
75:14
Pierce be on the I know what
75:16
that entails, I know the whole
75:17
list. Of those I am affirmative
75:23
attributes. And you know what
75:27
I’m I’m so happy to hear. you
75:28
say that because like I started
75:31
this whole self love journey
75:32
which is about taking time for
75:35
myself daily whether it’s
75:37
journaling meditating whatever
75:39
if I don’t want to do
75:40
something, I don’t do it
75:43
absolutely and sometimes that
75:44
puts me in uncomfortable
75:45
situations because it’s making
75:47
me set boundaries for myself
75:49
and so one of my biggest
75:51
lessons has been telling people
75:52
no and no is. Statement It’s a
75:57
it’s a complete sentence.
75:59
That’s it. It’s a complete
75:59
sentence so I’m learning that
76:05
this self-love journey. and and
76:07
and being focused on it every
76:09
day It’s bringing up a lot of
76:11
stuff that I was not aware of
76:14
absolutely and one of the
76:15
things I just want to say this
76:17
and I’m going to be quiet II
76:18
felt like I shared a lot today.
76:21
is I’ve been doing affirmations
76:24
every day. You basically like
76:28
you just confirmed what I’ve
76:30
already been doing so I
76:32
appreciate that absolutely
76:33
absolutely. absolutely victor’s
76:37
been had. back to back to back
76:40
triple manifestations after the
76:44
new moon, I mean just back to
76:46
back to back. It’s amazing once
76:49
you get clear clear headed and
76:53
have clarity of mind clarity of
76:54
thought and get deliberate and
76:56
intentional about your
76:57
affirmations and what it is you
77:00
really want and make that known
77:01
to the cosmos and take
77:03
advantage of the of the proper
77:05
energy. it has to matter they
77:08
have to manifest. Oh and I want
77:10
to say this last thing I know I
77:11
said. This is my last thing
77:13
that’s self forgiveness. Oh my
77:14
goodness. it’s. I want to I
77:20
want to poke a hole another
77:22
thing. it’s going to ruffle
77:23
some feathers. forgiveness is
77:25
for you. Absolutely it’s for
77:28
the other person. forgiveness
77:31
is for you. It’s for you if
77:33
someone has has. wronged you
77:37
the forgiveness that you give
77:39
is for yourself. It’s not for
77:42
the other person. because
77:44
usually that other person might
77:45
not even aware that you’re
77:48
pissed about something. that’s
77:49
absolutely and you. Sitting up
77:51
there man. for nothing. Might
77:56
be for something but
77:57
forgiveness is for yourself.
77:59
It’s not for the other person
78:01
It’s not it’s not change the
78:04
story you tell about yourself
78:08
to yourself and and and be kind
78:12
be kinder to yourself. Things
78:16
don’t go the way you had hoped
78:18
or desired or planned, be
78:21
kinder to yourself and don’t
78:23
fall back into that. Oh you
78:26
dumbasses see what you did. You
78:29
can’t do that. you have to be
78:31
kinder to yourself because.
78:34
sometimes. things are not going
78:37
to work out, according to your
78:39
plan and that’s okay. That’s
78:42
okay. I have a saying I don’t.
78:44
Lose I don’t ever lose I either
78:46
win or I learn and grow but I
78:50
don’t lose anything and and if
78:54
if if I set out a plan AAA
79:00
point a to point Z, which I
79:02
rarely do I rarely do AA to Z.
79:05
I’ll do the outline and and
79:07
I’ll have a general. I’ll have
79:09
a general destination, but the
79:12
the I’ll have a and Z but be
79:14
through all the rest I don’t
79:16
even. About it and I take my
79:20
hands off of the outcome. Take
79:23
my hands off the outcome.
79:30
So we want to. Changing the
79:35
story that we tell ourselves
79:38
about ourselves and yes.
79:41
victorious, we do not say
79:43
anything to ourselves that we
79:45
would not allow anyone else to
79:47
say to us. II would never I
79:50
would never let anybody just
79:53
flat out call me a **** Never I
79:55
will I will pop you in your
79:56
chart even right now. I’m
79:58
that’s the worst thing you
79:59
could ever say to me is call me
80:01
a **** or intimate that I am
80:03
not intelligent because I will
80:06
first of all I will speak to
80:07
you in a way that you would
80:08
normally tell you and then I’m
80:09
liable to hit you in your
80:11
mouth. or do something. I’m I’m
80:14
just I’m just you want to get
80:15
under my skin. Come call me
80:17
something other than my name
80:18
that you know me by. I mean,
80:22
it’s really that simple you you
80:24
can disagree with me, but you
80:25
don’t have to call me a moron
80:26
or idiot because I’m yeah, I
80:28
don’t like that. That’s that’s
80:29
not cool just because we have a
80:31
difference of opinion, don’t
80:32
give you the right to
80:33
disrespect me. So change the
80:36
story you tell about yourself
80:38
to yourself by changing how you
80:41
think of yourself. Again, no
80:46
matter what II have been, I
80:48
have been in the lowest of low.
80:51
and still thought very highly
80:53
of myself. and always knew that
80:56
I was one positive thought.
81:00
from changing my whole
81:02
situation. I always knew that
81:03
no matter where I was at no
81:05
matter what was going on. Each
81:09
one of us that’s on this call
81:10
right now we are each one
81:13
thought from our entire
81:15
lifestyle. expanding. It all
81:20
goes with how you tell. and
81:23
talk to yourself harmonize
81:27
those thoughts. We’re going to
81:28
bring balance to your
81:30
conflicting thoughts. We want
81:31
to get rid of the negative
81:32
narratives that we tell
81:33
ourselves we want to go and if
81:37
possible confront any of any of
81:40
those institutions or things
81:43
that have have started or
81:46
perpetuated or or helped with
81:48
the negative narratives and we.
81:50
To be kinder to ourselves when
81:53
things don’t go our way. Be
81:56
kind to yourself when things
81:58
don’t go your way. Other than
82:01
that, I’m very grateful for
82:03
everyone that was here today.
82:04
I’m going to open it up real
82:05
quick. any final thoughts from
82:08
anyone. The floor is open be
82:10
free to share whatever’s on
82:14
your heart. I’ll be right back.
82:17
I just want to say thank you
82:19
for for for the it’s so
82:21
encouraging. It’s just a really
82:23
good confirmation I sent you a
82:26
picture today. Did you see it?
82:27
Yes. He stepped away from his
82:31
desk. he stepped away from his
82:34
desk. Oh, I sent him AI was a
82:37
boss and I saw a beautiful
82:39
picture and I saw it was a.
82:43
want him to really share it
82:45
with everybody and it gave me
82:46
such an inspiration to just go
82:49
be you know just go towards me
82:52
again and I’m it’s not about
82:53
being selfish but censoring and
82:56
I want that somewhere in the in
82:58
the new house and it’s just a
82:59
gorgeous sometimes like. Things
83:02
on your mind. very beautiful
83:04
and you should. find it and put
83:08
that in in your house,
83:11
especially in in a breezeway or
83:14
in the entry way it is it is a
83:16
tone setter and a vibration
83:18
center, and I really really got
83:21
a really good feeling from that
83:23
picture that you see me. It’s
83:24
very beautiful. Yeah. isn’t it.
83:26
Yeah. Thank you. It’s gorgeous
83:27
Absolutely I want you to show
83:30
show it to everybody it. On my
83:33
phone and II, don’t I didn’t.
83:35
Oh okay. Yeah. it’s on my phone
83:37
so I will send it to to my
83:41
email and then on the next
83:42
meeting, I’ll have it up. Oh
83:44
thank you. Thank you and then
83:45
I’ll I’ll also create a.
83:49
Virtual background for you with
83:52
the picture on it and email
83:54
that to you as well. Oh yes, I
83:56
don’t know all that fancier. So
83:57
yeah, you can use that
84:00
absolutely absolutely. thank
84:01
you. Thank you. Thank you.
84:02
You’re welcome. You’re welcome
84:03
anyone else I did want to share
84:05
one more thing absolutely
84:07
because she made a statement,
84:09
she said. something about not
84:10
wanting to be or feel selfish
84:13
and I just wanted to because
84:16
I’ve I’ve gone through this too
84:17
and I had to learn the
84:18
difference between being self
84:20
centered. Selfish and it is not
84:24
selfish to take care of
84:26
ourselves like it’s it should
84:27
be a number one priority. so
84:31
just you know. yeah. I’m sure
84:34
that. absolutely.
84:38
Yes, yes.
84:41
Okay,
84:42
Y’all See where I am. Yes
84:45
Okay So you see my face or or
84:48
what you see I see your gray
84:50
hair. Okay. I don’t got no gray
84:53
hair. Yeah. okay. Y’all. Listen
84:56
you see this. Yes okay. So if I
84:59
continue driving you’re going
85:01
to see a mountain called Black
85:03
Mesa Mountain and it’s just a
85:06
spiritual. That’s the one I was
85:08
telling you everybody should
85:09
come in and feel for themselves
85:11
and it is just gorgeous when
85:13
you see it, you have to
85:14
experience it for yourself, but
85:16
this is the entry way. Okay.
85:19
Good good. I’ll just let you
85:21
let it play until you you sign
85:23
off. Absolutely absolutely
85:26
absolutely anyone else.
85:30
Alright. Well, I’m grateful for
85:33
everyone. Miss I will be
85:38
emailing you. give me about an
85:40
hour. I have some things I have
85:42
to take care of before I can
85:43
get the email to you just
85:44
respond to the email and I’ll
85:46
put you in my mailing list and
85:47
then you’ll you’ll get the zoom
85:50
links to one of my meetings and
85:54
I’m appreciative of everyone
85:55
being here. I’m excited about
85:56
the expansion that that we’re
85:58
going through and I’m looking.
86:00
To getting on a platform and
86:05
being able to just really
86:07
really. do what I came here to
86:10
do I’m grateful for everyone.
86:12
That’s here tonight and I look
86:13
forward to seeing each and
86:14
everyone of you very very soon.
86:18
until then. keep. yourself the
86:24
number one in your life. Keep
86:29
yourself. the number one in
86:32
your life. I will see you guys
86:35
on Tuesday. Goodbye until then
86:39
and goodbye for now.
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Mark Edward Pyle
Mark Edward Pyle is a Mastered Self Initiate and Soul (Karma) Reader, with 40 years of study and Master Level experience with Numerology, Astrology, Card Sciences (Standard & Tarot). Mark has perfected his craft by reading, compiling and analyzing 1,000’s of people and business/civic/governmental entities. Mark believes we are more than our Western Astrology Sun Sign and created and developed new ways in how you look at your daily/weekly/monthly & yearly horoscope.
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