On the 7s: Episode 11
Awakenings Of The Seven (7)
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and we are there. So, we’re
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thankful and grateful for
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everyone that is here on this
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call on the Zoom call and
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watching us live on Facebook
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and watching the replay. We’re
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very very thankful and grateful
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right now. We just want to
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stretch it out middle of of a
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really intense Mercury
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retrograde on top of a Saturn
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retrograde on top of a Pluto
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retrograde on top of a very
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stressful full moon and coming
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on a very liberating new moon.
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Just stretch it out. stretch it
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out as much as you can. Push.
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all negative thoughts out. Just
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come to the now. Come to this
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present moment. Feel yourself
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right where you are. right?
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Your own environment just
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release it. Roll your
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shoulders, shake your hips a
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little bit. do all those things
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necessary to get yourself
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comfortable. Now, we want to
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take five deep breaths. We’re
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going to breathe in through the
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nose as deep as you can. Hold
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it for a two count of three,
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count whatever you want to hold
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it for and then release and
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release fully through the nose.
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everything out of your lungs
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and we’re going to do five of
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those on your own and when I
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get done with my five, I will
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come back and still stretch it
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out.
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Breathe in deep.
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now with your energy and
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attention and focus, at your
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crown chakra. take all of your
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energy and attention and focus
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and put it at your crown
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chakra.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus down into your third
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eye chakra and leave it there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus down over your
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eyebrows, over your eyes,
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around your ears, and nose and
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mouth and teeth and chin and
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down into that throat chakra
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and leave it there
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus down into your
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shoulders All the way down Both
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arms into your hands. back up
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and down into your chest and
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down into your heart chakra and
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leave it there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus. down into your solar
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plexus chakra. and leave it
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there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus down your sacral
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chakra. and leave it there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus down into your root
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chakra. and leave it there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your hips and
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leave it there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your thighs and
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leave it there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your knees and
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leave it there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your calves and
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leave it there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your ankles. and
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leave it there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your heels and
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leave them there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your arches and
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leave them there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into the tips of your
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toes and leave it there.
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Now, we move to our five five
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release breathing. This
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breathing will help to ground
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and center us. We’ll breathe in
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on a five count. We’ll hold it
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for a five count and then we
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will make a full release for at
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least a five count. energy and
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attention and focus at your
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toes hearts, and minds clear.
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Breathe in. inspiration.
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Hope. inspiration.
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and release procrastination.
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Push all of your
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procrastination out. breathe in
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courage.
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Hold your courage.
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and release fear.
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Push all of your fear out.
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Hold your motivation.
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and release. Perfect
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imperfection.
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You’re good enough And your
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stuff is good enough. breathe
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in positive energy.
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that positive energy.
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and release positive action and
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effort.
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taking your attention and
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energy and focus back at your
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toes. Push that energy and
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attention and focus into your
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arches and leave some there
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your heels and
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leave some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your ankles and
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leave some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your calves and
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leave some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your knees and
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leave some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your thighs and
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leave some there.
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Push that energy and attention
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and focus into your hips and
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leave some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your root chakra
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and leave some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your sacral
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chakra and leave some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your solar
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plexus chakra. and leave some
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there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your heart
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chakra. Open it up. like the
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petals of a flower. and leave
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some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus into your throat
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chakra and leave some there.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus up around your chin
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and teeth and ears and nose and
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eyes and into the third eye
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chakra and leave some there
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and push that energy and
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attention and focus into your
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crown chakra and leave them
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there.
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Now, we will move to our 7777
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chakra energizing breathing
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where we’ll breathe in On the
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seven count, we will hold for a
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second count, We breathe out on
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a seven count and we will hold
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that for a second count and and
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we will do three repetitions of
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that. So, there will be no
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break in between the three
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energy and attention to focus
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at the crown chakra hearts and
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minds clear. Breathe in your
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creativity.
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your consciousness.
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breathe out your confidence.
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and hold your commerce.
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breathe in your prosperity.
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Hold your purpose.
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breathe out your positivity.
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and hold your positive
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production.
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in your commitment.
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your consistency.
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breathe out your compassion.
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curiosity.
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with your energy and attention
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and focus on your crown chakra.
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in your mind’s eye. See
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yourself see yourself in your
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mind’s eye view and above your
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head in your mind’s eye view.
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See a light imagine a light any
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color light you desire. just
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seize that light. Reach up with
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your hands. and connect with
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the light.
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feel the vibration. and
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frequency of the light.
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become one with the vibration
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and frequency of the light.
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Hold it there. breathe in.
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breathe out.
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and hold
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Now, pull that light down. Pull
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it down to where it is covering
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up your crown chakra. Pull that
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light all the way down to where
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it’s covering the top portion
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of your forehead and hold it
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there. Breathe in
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Hold
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out.
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and hold
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Now, pull that light down even
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further. Pull that light down
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to where it is covering up
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third eye chakra. Pull that
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light all the way down to where
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it’s at. The top portion of
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your eyebrows and hold it
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there. breathe in.
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Hold
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breathe out.
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and hold
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Now, pull that light down even
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further. Pull that light down
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over your eyes and over your
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nose, around your ears, and
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over your teeth and mouth and
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chin and set it right there in
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that throat chakra. Pull that
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light all the way down to where
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it’s at the top of your
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shoulders. Hold it there.
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breathe in.
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breathe out.
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and hold
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I push that light down even
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further. Push that light down
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over your shoulders down into
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both arms and hands and down
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into that open heart chakra.
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Push that light all the way
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down to where it’s in the
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middle of your breastplate
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reaching hold it there. Breathe
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in.
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breathe out.
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and hope.
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Now, push that light down even
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further. Push that light down
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to where it is covering up your
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solar plexus chakra. Push that
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light all the way down towards
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covering the top portion of
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your stomach region and hold it
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there. breathe in.
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breathe out.
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and hold
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I’ll push that light down even
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further. Push that light down
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to where it’s covering up your
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sacral chakra. Push that light
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all the way down to where it is
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at the bottom portion of your
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stomach area. Hold it there.
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breathe out.
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and hold
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Now, push that light down even
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further. Push that light down
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into your root chakra. Push
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that light all the way down to
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where it is in the middle
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portion of your thighs and hold
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it there.
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Out.
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and hold
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Now, push that light down into
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your knees. Push that light
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down into your calves. Push it
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down into your ankles. Push
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that leg down into your heels
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and around the bottom of your
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feet into your arches and push
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that leg all the way into the
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tips of of your toes.
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illuminating your body in your
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mind’s eye view. Hold it there.
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We’re even
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breathe out.
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Now, take that like and expand
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it out from your body. Take
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that light and make it one with
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your mind’s eye view and one
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with the universe.
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Hold it there. with your body.
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Do the same as we did with the
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light. Expand your body out.
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expand it out until it becomes
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one with the light, one with
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the universe and then one
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universe Hold it there. breathe
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in.
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home.
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out.
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Welcome to your very own
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manifestation and healing.
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chamber of the Astros. fly
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around. in every manifestation
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that comes up to you. and every
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wound trauma, drama, and
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baggage that pops up Just grab
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all of them and put them in
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that open heart chakra. Grab
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every manifestation. grab that
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book deal, grab that
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entrepreneurial idea, grab that
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going back to school. Grab that
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new job, grab that new car,
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Grab that new house, grab it
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all one by one. that open heart
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chakra and grab the healing
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that comes up to you as well.
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One by one. Put them in there.
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Put them in there. and as you
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finish putting them in there
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with your left hand, put it on
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your heart chakra and with your
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right hand, put it on top of
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your left shoulder.
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Hold it there as we energize,
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equip, and empower. every one
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of your manifestations and
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every one of your healings in
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that open heart chakra.
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breathe in.
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and hold
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Just enjoy this.
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now. contract the light back to
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just your body. and as we did
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with the light contract your
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body back to the original size,
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it was in your mind’s eye view.
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Put your energy and attention
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and focus down at the tip of
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your toes. as we push up and
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out your energy and attention
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and focus out of your toes,
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into your arches. It’s that
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energy and attention and focus
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and light out of your arches
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into your heels. push that
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energy and attention and focus
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and light into your ankles.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus on light into your
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calves.
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push that energy and attention
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and focus in light into your
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knees. push that energy and
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attention to focus and light
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into your thighs. push that
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energy and attention. focus and
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light into your hips.
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and push that energy and
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attention and focus and light
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into the root chakra. Hold it
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there.
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home.
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breathe out.
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and hold
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Now, push that energy and
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attention and focus and light
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into your sacral chakra and
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hold it there. Breathe in.
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Hold
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breathe out.
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and hold
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push that energy and attention
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and focus in life into your
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solar plexus chakra and hold it
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there. breathe in.
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home.
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and hold
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I’ll push that energy and
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attention and focus in life
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into that open heart chakra
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where you’re energized,
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equipped, and empowered
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manifestations and healings are
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and hold it there. breathe in.
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Brady. He’s out.
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and hold
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Now, push that energy and
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attention and focus and light
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and energize and equipped and
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empowered manifestations and
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healings into that throat
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chakra and hold it there
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breathe in.
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breathe out.
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and hold
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Now, push that energy and
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attention and focus and light
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and energized and equipped and
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empowered manifestations and
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healings up through your chin
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and around your teeth and
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through your nose and around
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your ears and around your eyes
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and through and up into your
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third eye chakra. and hold it
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there breathe in.
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Home.
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Out.
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and hold
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Now, push that energy and
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attention and focus in life and
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you’re energized and equipped
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manifestations and healings
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into and out of your crown
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chakra and let it illuminates
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your mind’s eye view like
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reigning stars
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Hold it there. breathe in.
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out.
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and hold
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Enjoy your rain.
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Now, as we come back to the
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now, as we start to rub our
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hands together, let us take
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three deep breaths. going to
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breathe in through your nose,
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hold it, and then a full
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release, Breathe in
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and release. Still rubbing our
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hands together.
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breathe in.
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Hold and release.
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One more. Breathe in.
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Hold and release.
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and with that, I’m thankful and
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grateful for everyone who is
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here. This is on the sevens
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with PB Metatron. I am your
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host. I am the hostess with the
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mostess. I kind of made a
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little bit of that up and stole
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a little bit of that from
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Beetle Geese Beetlejuice but I
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can do that. Floor is open. I
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have to do a little technical
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thing real quick. So, the floor
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is open. How’s everybody
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maintaining in the midst of the
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Mercury retrograde with all the
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other retrogrades and that
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heavy full moon floors
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No one.
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No, not right now.
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It’s all good. Good lord girl.
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Hi, everyone. I just wanted to
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speak. I’m doing pretty good
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during this special day but
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none of your business go away.
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Oh,
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I’m doing pretty good during
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the day. Just taking it slow.
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The first week of the
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retrograde but stop doing it.
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The first week of the
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retrograde, I had an accident
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and I hurt myself and all I
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need is one in the morning. So,
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I slowed down right away. Well,
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honey Bee, you know, your
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ancestors have been screaming
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at you to slow down for a
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little bit So, yeah, I’m glad
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you’re here. Get out of here
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and I’m glad that you’re
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devastatingly hurt and and it’s
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good have you here. That’s
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good. It’s good to anybody
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else. Thank you. Anybody else
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want to chime in before we get
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started? If not, we’re going to
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run on then. Welcome to to the
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class today. Today, we are
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breaking down the emotional
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self even further. We we get an
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introduction of it. on
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Tuesdays. you know, the self is
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aligned with the chakra.
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What we are centering. the
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whole gist of the lesson. What?
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Emotional self healing self
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forgiveness, and reactive
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response control We know that
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the emotional self is the home
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of our ego, our anger, our self
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worth, and healthy and
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unhealthy attachments. I call
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it the trauma center of the
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soul. So, we’re going to dive
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in deeper to the emotional self
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today and today, we’re going to
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be talking about the art of
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becoming less ego Emotional
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Anybody if you’re new here,
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I’ll I’ll make up words every
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now and again. So, yeah, don’t
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worry about it. It will be in
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Webster soon enough but The art
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of becoming less ego Emotional
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and today’s key phrase is
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renounce renounce. We are
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renouncing all Emotional
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bullies All and bully tactics.
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All Emotional manipulators and
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manipulation. and all emotional
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abusers and abuse So, other
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than You know, we got we we
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have a few avenues or a few
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areas that affect us
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emotionally.
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the biggest influencer on our
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emotions is that television and
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the programming that they have
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on the television and if you do
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not believe that the network
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news is scripted and
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programmed, then, yeah, it’s
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it’s it’s the leader of the
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programming. We we we have we
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sometimes we willingly allow
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our emotions to be played with
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and to be manipulated and
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borderline abused especially
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those of us that log in day
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after day after day. You know,
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your media of choice, your news
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of choice, II. Believe that at
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no time. Greater than today.
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has our media taking on a role
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of abusers. It doesn’t matter
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what side of the fence you fall
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on politically or or worldview
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wise. I feel that our our media
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won both sides either side or
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even the neutral ones. They
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they are Emotional abusers and
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the reason why I say that is
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because they have Stop.
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reporting. on events.
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the media creates news and
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narratives. Now, they long stop
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being journalist and now
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they’re they’re they’re all
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talk show hosts. They just some
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of them just moonlight on
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network news. So, so today,
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let’s let’s let’s let’s make it
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normal to renounce all
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Emotional bullies, Emotional
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manipulators and emotional
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abuse. We’re going to renounce
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Physical bullies and that We’ve
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already done all that but
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today, today, we we gotta deal
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with these with these emotions
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and number recognizing number
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one, the the first thing that
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we have to do First of all,
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anybody got anything to say
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about my little rant about the
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media? no matter which side you
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fall on, anybody’s want to
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chime in on that. I absolutely
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agree with you. I watched this
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documentary They were talking
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about the news station in
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Colorado and basically, what
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they were saying was that like
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there are more people that have
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car accidents that are under
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the influence of marijuana than
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any other driver on the road
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and so they they’re like, yeah
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they did a simulation and this
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guy Got a hidden camera in
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there. Like it was funny to
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like no cellphones, no
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electronics. no no recording of
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any kind and so he snuck his
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cellphone in there and he
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started recording and they did
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a news report and they were
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basically saying that like the
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sober drivers had a better
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driving record than the people
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under the influence of
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marijuana but what they didn’t
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show is that the people that
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were under the influence of
38:11
marijuana when they were given
38:12
the assimilation. First of all,
38:13
they were driving the eighteen
38:15
wheeler second. They’re like,
38:17
potholes in the road very soon.
38:19
Like they have little old
38:20
ladies come out of nowhere and
38:21
across the street and then
38:22
there’s like a hailstorm and a
38:24
tornado like they weren’t
38:25
showing any of that. They were
38:26
just showing the success rate
38:30
for both drivers. So, that was
38:32
like one of the biggest lies
38:34
they told on there. Absolutely.
38:36
Absolutely and and we have to
38:38
be careful with with what we,
38:40
you know, when we watch the the
38:44
news and watch and and hear
38:45
these statistic thrown out. You
38:48
know, 70% of this means this
38:51
and 40% said this, that means
38:54
60% said something else. you
38:55
know, and we the craft, their
39:01
programming to fit whatever
39:04
narrative is serving their
39:06
purpose and they are quite a
39:07
few narratives that are going
39:08
on. So, we really, really,
39:11
really have to be careful. I
39:12
want to, I want to give folks
39:18
If you want some unbiased unlit
39:23
un Tilted one way or another
39:26
news, check out this place
39:27
called Before It Is News. Just
39:30
type that in your browser and I
39:32
guarantee you, you will be
39:34
grateful If you are a news
39:36
junkie, you’ll be grateful
39:37
because it’s not, there’s no
39:39
slant there.
39:42
Now that we can get away from
39:46
that, let’s look at at at
39:48
ourselves and let’s look
39:50
because we are always here and
39:52
on the seventh, I’m always
39:54
going to point us and me back
39:55
to ourselves and myself Let’s
40:01
look at recognizing our
40:03
Emotional triggers. where where
40:06
do some of our triggers come
40:08
from? Where where where, where,
40:10
who, and why has placed our
40:13
emotional triggers where they
40:14
are Anybody got any any
40:18
suggestions?
40:22
Maybe from some past emotional,
40:24
physical, mental abuse.
40:27
childhood. childhood who who
40:30
who is willing to admit that
40:31
the first bully you ran into
40:33
was in your own home?
40:35
Absolutely, definitely. Yeah.
40:39
The the and I got talk to worse
40:43
in my house. than I ever did
40:46
outside of my house. past past
40:50
childhood trauma. past
40:54
childhood, especially
40:56
unresolved and any past
40:58
emotional trauma, you know, not
41:01
only was it kind of kind of
41:02
tough our bully, our first
41:04
bully may have in our one of
41:05
our parents and and then, of
41:07
course, each of us knew the
41:09
bully at school but I’m talking
41:11
about the ones who wasn’t even
41:12
the bullies. Your friends who
41:14
would talk **** about you when
41:15
you got a new pair of glasses
41:17
and they called you eyes
41:19
because yours is way out here.
41:21
Yeah. Or I have bifocals and I
41:23
was one of the first one that
41:25
bifocals and I had to sit in
41:26
front of the class because I
41:28
couldn’t see **** from the back
41:30
and yeah, my friends, my
41:32
friends tease me and call me
41:34
all kinds of things. Anybody
41:36
else have big **** glasses when
41:38
you was in school and yeah,
41:40
felt self conscious about it.
41:42
Not only in your own self but
41:45
because of what the other kids
41:46
were saying and teasing and
41:49
laughing at you. your family
41:50
call you four eyes. Anybody
41:52
have any type of you have any
41:53
type of Physical thing going on
41:57
in your life that that made you
41:58
a little bit different and your
42:00
family instead of being
42:02
nurturing, they just pounce on
42:03
it and always brought it up and
42:04
always something or or you ever
42:06
heard you young ladies who have
42:09
brothers You ever heard
42:10
somebody say you just like your
42:12
daddy whenever they did
42:13
something wrong? Yeah, that’s
42:16
emotional abuse. Hello. Hi,
42:19
it’s Joann. How are you? Hi,
42:21
Joanne. How are you? Oh, I’m
42:23
tired. I am tired. I’m trying
42:26
to, I’m just tired but I’m
42:27
here. Good. Good. I’m glad
42:30
you’re here. Yeah, Physical
42:31
thing. I used to be calling me
42:33
about my big nose. I said,
42:35
yeah, okay. So, try to change
42:36
it as soon as they try to touch
42:37
me. That’s how I became a
42:39
fighter. Absolutely. That’s
42:41
the, that was the beginning of
42:42
it but do you see, do you see
42:43
where that trigger came from?
42:45
It was it was you are already
42:47
self conscious about it. Nobody
42:49
needed to tell you I wasn’t.
42:50
No, I wasn’t. No, I wasn’t. I
42:52
wasn’t. Okay. So this was
42:53
something that they That was
42:55
cool. Yeah. Like how how? Like
42:58
you decided what know you was
42:59
going to get like really like,
43:01
come on. It’s none of your damn
43:02
business. What I got and that’s
43:04
what I said and then my my my
43:06
mother always said, you know,
43:07
it doesn’t matter. She always
43:09
said, did they buy you your
43:11
shoes? Did I buy your shirt?
43:12
Did I give you a food? And
43:14
that’s how. So by the time I
43:15
got to high school, I didn’t
43:16
have no tolerance for that
43:18
anymore. I didn’t have no none
43:19
of that. between my sister and
43:23
my mom. They took care of that
43:23
in my elementary and junior
43:26
high. So by the time high
43:27
school, that’s how I became
43:28
very to person. Good. Good.
43:33
Good. It helped me as a social
43:35
worker because I don’t I’m not
43:36
joining into all that drama but
43:39
we’re going to get to that. I’m
43:39
glad you mentioned that because
43:41
that is that is one of the
43:43
topics of discussion today too.
43:45
Also, some of our do you think
43:46
some of our emotional triggers
43:48
come from current or recent
43:51
failures and disappointments?
43:52
You think we can get emotional
43:54
about that that job that we
43:55
lost or or that breakup that we
43:58
just had or You know, we some
44:02
kind of a monkey wrench was
44:04
thrown into our well crafted
44:06
out plan and it didn’t happen.
44:08
They think that I could play an
44:10
emotional trigger on us or or
44:13
or have we didn’t make it to
44:15
the fantasy that we had in our
44:16
head. Do you think that brings
44:18
on that? it brings that
44:20
disappointment and we consider
44:21
ourselves a failure, you know,
44:23
because we we don’t live up to
44:24
somebody else’s standard. You
44:28
think a lot of us have been
44:29
through some of and have had
44:32
emotional triggers. You get,
44:34
you have people who who, you
44:36
know, they never understand
44:37
what it is that you do and and
44:39
when you tell them what it is
44:40
you do, they just kind of look
44:41
at you. They give you this look
44:43
like You know it causes a
44:47
reaction. It it takes a it
44:50
takes AA master. not to be
44:53
affected by a slight or a
44:56
insult or or or you know, some
44:59
negative talk coming from
45:01
somebody else and you have to
45:02
be a master at and not not
45:06
feeling an emotion. I’m not
45:08
saying a and all of that. I’m
45:10
saying not feeling that
45:13
Emotional rise in you
45:17
Also, you think we put, we
45:19
place our own triggers on
45:21
ourself sometimes. Some of us
45:24
have some self-inflicted
45:27
triggers.
45:30
Again, that comes back to
45:32
attempting to shove your round
45:35
**** into a square peg. That
45:37
society say you’re supposed to
45:38
fit and falling for the lie.
45:42
It’s a big lie going on you
45:44
guys about the American dream.
45:50
very very a very small
45:52
percentage of people ever
45:54
achieve that elusive American
45:57
dream. Very small percentage.
45:59
It should be your individual
46:02
dream. Stop worrying about this
46:05
American dream and stop this
46:09
unrealistic trajectory up. this
46:12
proverbial ladder that don’t
46:13
exist. You determine your
46:16
success. You determine if it’s
46:19
you determine your worth.
46:22
Recognizing our emotional
46:23
triggers can be kind of painful
46:24
sometimes because you know it
46:30
the the the reasons why if we
46:33
go get it is the reasons why we
46:34
hold on to em are something
46:36
totally different than the
46:37
trigger in itself in and of
46:38
itself. So, we’re going to have
46:41
to examine reasons why because
46:43
we can remove the triggers
46:44
anytime we want. Y’all know
46:46
that, right? You know, you can
46:48
remove an emotional trigger
46:50
anytime you want. So, there’s a
46:52
reason why we hold on to the
46:53
ones that we keep Anybody got
46:57
anything to add to that? To
46:59
give and take you guys. I like
47:00
when y’all give and take it
47:02
back. I can keep going. It’s
47:04
it’s all good. I like what you
47:06
said. It just takes years to
47:08
realize that Absolutely. It
47:11
just absolutely. It’s true.
47:11
It’s just takes years for the
47:14
for the consciousness to catch
47:15
up with the unconsciousness and
47:19
become one with that
47:19
understanding. So, it is it is
47:21
it just takes time. It it does.
47:23
it does. Number two. number two
47:27
part of the main focus of of
47:32
the of awakening to the
47:33
emotional self is releasing our
47:36
emotional trauma and baggage II
47:43
could pretty much assure that
47:45
everyone of us that’s on this
47:47
call
47:50
some sort
47:50
of childhood trauma
47:52
that negatively affected us.
47:55
well into adulthood. if not
47:58
still
48:03
childhood trauma man. You know,
48:07
if you really just take some
48:09
time and replay your childhood
48:15
Oh god, no, all of it. Just
48:17
take some time and and be
48:20
honest when you do this replay,
48:22
don’t replay the highlights.
48:23
See, don’t do the Espn top ten
48:27
Yeah. Play the whole game. the
48:29
whole game. and you. I realized
48:35
that there was a whole II.
48:37
Thought I had the best little
48:40
childhood ever and some of the
48:42
folks who I grew up with would
48:44
would probably think I did.
48:45
They didn’t live in the house I
48:47
lived in so they don’t know and
48:49
then when I went back and
48:51
replayed the whole tape, not
48:53
just the highlights, not just
48:54
the top 11th of all. I didn’t
48:55
even get a top ten. There was
48:57
no top ten for me. It was
49:02
always a bottom ten y’all. And
49:03
then that bottom ten filled up
49:05
real quick and I was was always
49:07
reminded of what I wasn’t never
49:10
applauded for what I was or who
49:11
I was always reminded of what I
49:14
wasn’t and what I was not going
49:15
to be, you know,
49:21
I heard that I wasn’t going to
49:23
be about **** so much. that
49:26
when I got smart and told my
49:28
grandmother that that means I’m
49:29
going to be successful. She
49:30
slapped me in my mouth.
49:36
That was traumatic.
49:41
every every time I wrote a
49:45
little note to a little girl in
49:47
one of my classes and pass it
49:49
to her and she didn’t look over
49:52
at me or or acknowledge. I said
49:54
to know that was traumatic for
49:57
a little shy little introvert
49:59
like me at that age, that was
50:01
traumatic. Every time somebody
50:05
threatened to kick my **** even
50:06
though I was stood my ground,
50:07
it still was traumatic. Every
50:09
time I was threatened, I was
50:11
threatened regularly. I was
50:13
threatened every day in my
50:15
house with my grandmother real
50:18
legitimate physical harm
50:20
threats. That was traumatic.
50:23
That regardless of how I
50:25
processed through it,
50:26
regardless of how I decided to
50:28
look at it, regardless of what
50:30
I use as my avenue of escape,
50:33
the **** was still traumatic.
50:38
There are other, Anybody else?
50:40
Anybody else had some childhood
50:42
traumas that that the story you
50:43
used to tell or currently tell
50:45
about your childhood really
50:47
ain’t lining up because it
50:48
really ain’t true. absolutely
50:52
II realized like a lot of the I
50:56
want to say it’s called I want
50:58
to call it over nurturing where
51:00
like I actually have a
51:02
nurturing, you know, demeanor
51:04
but sometimes it’s like a
51:07
nurture to people that don’t
51:08
deserve it and I remembered
51:12
like II want to say I was ten
51:14
and we had just moved to
51:15
Virginia and I got home from
51:18
school 1 day and my mom was in
51:19
the closet. I couldn’t find
51:20
her. I’m walking around the
51:23
house looking for and I found
51:24
her like crushed over in the
51:26
closet. trying to commit
51:28
suicide. Wow. And I had to stop
51:31
her from that and when I look
51:35
on it, like that wasn’t the
51:36
only time she attempted to do
51:38
that. So, like as an adult,
51:39
when I look back on my
51:41
childhood and I think about the
51:43
multiple times that I caught my
51:44
mom attempting to commit
51:47
suicide or the multiple times
51:49
where she did or just the
51:50
things that I went through with
51:51
her in general. I in a bit more
51:55
like why I forgive as easily
51:58
and as much as I do even when
51:59
people don’t deserve it.
52:01
Absolutely. Absolutely. That
52:03
that’s tough. especially, you
52:05
know, your first instance at 10
52:07
years old, you know, I can just
52:11
imagine you adored your mother
52:14
and I know how you felt about
52:15
your mom. So, I mean, when you
52:18
were ten, your mom was the
52:19
goddess. She was everything and
52:21
for you to have to see that?
52:25
And to have your have that
52:27
fantasy of her just crashed
52:31
right down. I know that it had
52:33
to be traumatic and then it
52:34
just started a pattern, a
52:36
pattern of trauma, trauma
52:39
responses between you and your
52:40
mom. You see how that pattern?
52:42
see how it just began and it
52:43
took and it’s still not
52:46
finished. The cycling is still
52:48
not finished. It’s it’s at it’s
52:50
end but you you understand what
52:52
I mean when I’m telling you
52:53
this that that that’s the
52:54
that’s one of the cycles
52:56
started. a long 1819 years ago.
53:02
Honey Bee. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
53:05
Anybody else want to share?
53:12
anybody? Oh, okay. How about
53:14
other growing up developmental
53:18
injuries?
53:23
some of the decisions and
53:26
choices and some of the folks
53:27
we decide to align ourselves
53:30
with and and you know, some of
53:32
the things you know, that I was
53:37
exposed to, you know, I was
53:38
exposed to, oh, what is it? you
53:40
know, a bunch of stuff, you
53:42
know, why is it black ****
53:44
illicit drugs? I’m talking sex.
53:47
I’m talking all alcohol and a
53:51
very, very, very young age and
53:52
it was
53:58
We can talk about a big one.
54:00
That was very normalized in the
54:02
black community and actually a
54:05
lot of communities to be true.
54:06
It’s not just the black
54:06
community and it does affect
54:08
people almost their entire
54:10
life. It does and nobody
54:12
actually talks about it when
54:13
they’re talking about sexual
54:14
abuse. When you’re talking
54:15
about being molested by your
54:16
uncle or something or your
54:17
uncle’s, I was When you are
54:20
molested by your aunt and your
54:23
sister, you know, or you’re
54:24
molested by your best friend or
54:27
your big brother or big
54:28
sisters, friends, or family or
54:30
everybody has had some kind of
54:32
sexual trauma. Yes, it was
54:36
first boyfriend who raped you
54:37
and you were hoping that he was
54:38
going to be gentle and cute and
54:40
cool with you and those are a
54:42
lot of those silent triggers
54:44
that people don’t talk about.
54:47
feel like it’s taboo to talk
54:48
about and A lot of times
54:52
removed the trauma from their
54:54
minds so they don’t think about
54:55
it at all or act like it
54:55
doesn’t even happen but not
54:57
realizing that a lot of the
54:59
things that you’re doing is in
55:02
direct reflection to that. I’m
55:04
sorry y’all. It’s okay.
55:11
You know. I have. I was just
55:15
talking with with someone about
55:18
this exact thing. I want to
55:22
normalize calling out them
55:23
creepy **** men in the family
55:26
that have every girl child
55:29
scared to death. I mean, it is
55:32
wrong and it always has been
55:36
and it always will be. Some of
55:43
never recover from that. Some
55:47
of us never recover from that.
55:50
What are some other growing up
55:53
developmental injuries? that we
55:56
can go through? I think it’s
55:59
very important to address not
56:03
how all of those that have been
56:04
mentioned kind of like layer or
56:07
move into the whole notion of
56:10
children especially like the
56:11
older child’s having to parent
56:14
the parent that part too. you
56:16
know, children that are the
56:19
oldest, never really
56:20
identifying with their own
56:22
child’s self. never ever
56:25
actualizing as a child going
56:27
through that phase of
56:28
developmental childhood like
56:31
You know you’re 6 years old.
56:32
You need to identify with that
56:34
at some point. That’s something
56:36
that family members don’t think
56:38
about when you know you have
56:40
siblings that you have to tend
56:42
to not even because you have
56:44
to. I would just speak for
56:46
myself and say it was a
56:47
personal decision because of
56:49
love and I didn’t trust anybody
56:51
and I think it was really
56:52
important to just feel that
56:55
sense of like keeping secrets
56:57
about what was happening in
57:00
your household so that the rest
57:01
of the world, the outside world
57:03
didn’t immediately have any
57:05
kind of judgment about what
57:07
your parent was or was not
57:08
being or was or what’s not
57:11
doing for you. Of course,
57:13
family members know stuff
57:14
that’s going on but again, that
57:16
plays into what you just talked
57:17
about when it comes to
57:20
protecting the uncle and the
57:22
cousins and the aunties and the
57:25
pastors and the Sunday school
57:27
teachers and all the people who
57:28
had some kind of an influence
57:30
on you as a child just not you
57:35
or supporting you to be a
57:36
child, you know, having to grow
57:38
up before your time so to
57:40
speak, having to be an adult
57:42
when you’re 9 years old is
57:43
really absolutely. it’s
57:46
devastating. You don’t really
57:47
realize that until you live a
57:49
little life Absolutely.
57:52
Absolutely. You know, and and
57:57
it it it happens to so many of
58:02
us
58:05
II know for a fact those of us
58:07
that grew up in the 70s and the
58:10
80s and early 90s. Yeah, we
58:13
dealt with some parents that
58:19
when they had us, they weren’t
58:22
too responsible and we seem
58:24
like we came to be the parent.
58:28
They actually were a child and
58:30
and just like Tamika just said,
58:32
you know, having to, you know,
58:35
me having to go get medication
58:38
from grandmother grandfather,
58:39
and my mom and having to pay
58:42
bills at 1011 12 years old with
58:44
my buddies was out at the park
58:46
shooting marbles and and
58:48
playing basketball II. Didn’t I
58:51
wasn’t able to enjoy all of
58:54
those things. Yeah, I got to
58:54
enjoy a lot of stuff but
58:55
there’s some stuff I couldn’t
58:57
because I had responsibility
58:59
wasn’t my responsibility but it
59:01
was given to me and I had to I
59:03
had to face that and I had to
59:06
grow up at a at an accelerated
59:09
pace. What about What about
59:13
forced compliance? to unhealthy
59:17
behaviors? I was just thinking
59:19
that I was just thinking that
59:26
forced compliance to unhealthy
59:29
behaviors. Yeah, that’s
59:32
traumatic. It’s again,
59:38
There are things that parents
59:40
do that they have no idea. the
59:45
damage and the trauma that it
59:46
puts on the children even if
59:49
even if something as as
59:52
innocent and and I’m I’ve
59:54
mentioned this before as
59:56
innocent as going to church
60:00
Now, all of us on this call
60:03
have been influenced by the
60:04
church one way or another. If
60:06
you believe it or not, you’re
60:07
in in this country that it’s
60:11
predominant. So, you have been
60:14
influenced whether you wanted
60:15
to or not by religion,
60:20
with that influence.
60:26
We have been forced. Some of us
60:28
have been forced into complying
60:36
almost impossible restrictions
60:37
on you. You, you you know, me
60:39
and a friend of mine, we talked
60:40
about this years ago. You know,
60:42
we we went through AA literal
60:47
review of the Bible and we
60:49
said, you know what, man? The
60:51
requirements to get into heaven
60:52
and can’t nobody make them
60:57
Nobody’s going to be able to
60:58
get there. There’s going to be
61:00
empty. It’s going to be empty
61:03
based on the based on the what
61:04
it says in the book. Now, based
61:08
on what preachers tell you,
61:09
everybody going to make it but
61:12
that’s not what the book says.
61:13
The book don’t say it like
61:14
that. So, you know, or how
61:17
about how about you you in a
61:20
family and and this you got
61:24
four siblings in front of you
61:25
and all four of them told the
61:27
line and you’re a little wild
61:29
and you’re being forced to
61:32
comply with what the other four
61:34
did.
61:37
Sorry y’all. I’m kind of
61:38
jumping here real quick. I’ve I
61:40
have to. I know I’ve been quiet
61:42
because I’m very talkative. My
61:44
phone. It’s like I know what
61:45
you got going on. Stuff going
61:46
on and I do need to jump on
61:48
right now because it’s 5
61:49
o’clock and I got a photo shoot
61:50
in an hour. Okay. But I
61:52
definitely will be back II.
61:54
Enjoy listening to you all and
61:56
I definitely enjoy you know,
61:59
seeing and speaking with you
61:59
more often in the future.
62:01
Absolutely. Thank you for
62:02
coming Desiree. Appreciate it.
62:03
You’re welcome. So, all of
62:08
that, you know. Every time you
62:13
was, you had to go get it.
62:14
Think about the psychology.
62:17
This was this was probably kids
62:22
from the 70s on backwards.
62:25
Think about this psychology
62:26
when you had to go outside to
62:28
get a switch to whoop your own
62:30
****
62:34
That was traumatic. Traumatic.
62:38
You think about it. Think about
62:42
think another one of those
62:45
trauma. things. When when I was
62:47
a kid, I’ve never had to worry
62:50
about this but my my my friends
62:53
always did when they were
62:55
messing up during the day and
62:57
mom would come home and come
62:58
out and say, I’m going to tell
63:00
your daddy on you when he get
63:02
home from work, you know, That
63:05
is for that kid. for the rest
63:08
of the day. knowing that he’s
63:10
getting ready to get Molly
63:12
walked my dad too because you
63:14
know, mom will put extra on it.
63:18
trauma. It’s it’s traumatic,
63:20
man. It’s traumatic. First time
63:23
I was like, this girl walking
63:25
to her told her I liked her.
63:27
She took off running and
63:28
laughing. It was traumatic.
63:32
That was traumatic. forced
63:36
compliance to unhealthy
63:39
behaviors. You’re going to do
63:40
what I say do if it kills you.
63:43
Yeah. Number three. Number
63:46
three. Big, big, big part of of
63:49
awakening to your emotional
63:51
self is the reducing of our
63:53
emotional drama. with emotional
64:00
detachment. Now, this is the,
64:02
this is tricky and sticky
64:04
because You start telling
64:07
people to detach. from other
64:11
people and they get all Oh my
64:15
god. I can’t detach from my
64:16
kids. Oh my. I’m your mother.
64:19
How can I detach from my
64:24
He’s so dramatic. Oh. oh.
64:27
you’ll be surprised. I’m
64:29
laughing at you. You’ll be
64:31
surprised. Why do we consume
64:36
emotional drama? And that’s
64:38
what we’re taught to do. Who
64:42
taught you that? My mom and her
64:46
mom. You saw the pattern in the
64:48
pattern, right? Yeah. In the
64:50
pattern. What is the benefit of
64:53
it? Has anybody ever figured
64:55
out the benefit of of because
64:57
some of us, we just had the
64:59
Through of emotional drama.
65:00
Yes, I’m not allowed to. just
65:02
give me more, give me more,
65:04
give me more, give me more. We
65:06
can If you know y’all see
65:09
nothing different, that’s why
65:10
Because I don’t see nothing
65:11
different. That’s why if you
65:13
know this is why I don’t watch
65:17
network TV at all. If I know
65:20
that that’s something that they
65:23
first of all, ain’t going to
65:24
lie with my soul. And secondly,
65:25
you going to pissed me off. I
65:27
don’t even watch it. I don’t I
65:29
don’t allow I don’t allow too
65:31
much of anything outside of me
65:34
to punch an emotional trigger
65:35
on me. That’s just That’s just
65:39
me. I can detach from the news.
65:42
I can detach from politics. I
65:43
can detach from religion. I can
65:46
detached from sports. It don’t
65:48
mean nothing to me. Nothing. I
65:50
don’t care. Can I can I share a
65:52
funny story? Yes, I went to get
65:55
a pedicure and this is my first
65:57
pedicure like 4 years because I
65:59
don’t go to those places that
66:01
I’m going to care about me. I
66:02
really don’t. Okay. So, but I
66:03
went today So, you know, they
66:06
have these big TVs, right? They
66:09
have big TVs and they put the
66:13
volume up You know me. Okay,
66:16
you do that but I’m watching
66:18
you. You know what that girl
66:18
did? She just tapped on my
66:21
toes. I said, excuse me I
66:22
thought I pointed to the tools
66:24
that she’s going to use and I
66:26
said, use this one and go back
66:28
on that because she thought I
66:30
was into that TV. I’m not, I’m
66:32
not a fool. I’m not your food.
66:34
I’m not your food and so at the
66:36
end, I said she did a good job
66:38
but she only went back into my
66:39
toes when she saw that I saw,
66:42
you know, was watching her and
66:43
then at the end, but I say I’ll
66:45
say I’ll see y’all in 4 years.
66:46
You know, I don’t do. I don’t
66:48
do that. I don’t II. Watch you
66:51
and one time you play with me
66:52
and I’m done and absolutely. I
66:54
didn’t like that at all.
66:56
Absolutely. I’m kind of like
66:57
George W Bush on that too. You
66:59
know, fool me once. Shame on
67:00
you. You’re not going to get a
67:02
chance to, you. You know, you
67:04
you asking me for $35 to play
67:06
with my toes. Okay, Yeah. Okay.
67:08
No, no. Yeah. I mean, yeah.
67:09
okay. Why do why do we why do
67:12
we consume some of the stuff
67:13
that we do when we know it’s
67:15
it’s emotional drama. Why why
67:16
do we do it? But does it feed
67:18
does it a need in each one of
67:22
us.
67:25
Does it feed the need? It feeds
67:29
a need. I think it’s the pain
67:33
body and that everybody has one
67:38
and and and that’s a good
67:40
scenario for me because I have
67:42
one for a lot of years but when
67:44
I got rid of it, like you said,
67:45
no Tv, my granddaughter just
67:48
gave me a TV about a month ago.
67:49
Mm hmm. But I had a Tv. I went
67:53
to Germany. 25 years. I don’t
67:55
have Tvs. I don’t bother Tvs. I
67:57
don’t like and then when I was
67:59
talking with my grandsons this
68:00
week, I said, it’s time for you
68:01
to go home because that TV
68:03
stays on, right? And I can’t
68:05
handle all that and then they
68:07
be cussing and they be fighting
68:08
and they be this and they be
68:10
that and and all that and they
68:12
sit around, you know, they’re
68:13
in their 30s but they haven’t,
68:15
you know, I got on drugs at
68:16
Thirty-four. I’ve been cleaned
68:17
36 years and so when god took
68:19
me off the drugs, he took me
68:20
off the because I was TV too.
68:23
So, my thing is, you know,
68:26
you’ve got to have something
68:28
that happens inside of us.
68:30
Yeah. That would that will
68:32
support us and guide us and
68:34
what is healthy for to enter
68:38
into us and when they manage
68:40
strangling and raping children
68:41
and kidnapping just like I
68:43
can’t watch that. I don’t want
68:45
to see it. That’s not the world
68:46
that I see. The world I see is
68:49
different and I don’t want
68:50
anybody tampering with that.
68:51
So, I have to watch myself when
68:53
I’m around them because it’s
68:55
been I’ve watched a few of the
68:55
things this interesting couple
68:58
things was interesting. Got a
69:00
good message out of it. If I
69:01
can get a good but all that
69:02
cussing and and killing and
69:04
this and that and all that and
69:06
you can’t take me there. I
69:08
don’t want to go Absolutely.
69:10
Absolutely. I have been paid a
69:13
cable bill since 2006. Good for
69:16
you and I haven’t been in a
69:17
movie theater since I did want
69:19
to see. Yeah, I did. I was I
69:22
was like 4 years ago. That was
69:24
the last time I was in a movie
69:25
theater. Queen was a good I saw
69:26
that. That was a good flick
69:28
creed. I wanted to support that
69:30
young black guy but I haven’t
69:32
been in a a movie theater since
69:33
and I’m I really don’t want to
69:34
go Can we, can we all agree and
69:38
all admit that we know somebody
69:41
that is attached to emotional
69:43
drama or have people in our
69:46
lives that are attached to no
69:50
because I let them go but we
69:51
know but you know, right. I
69:54
don’t have. I know I don’t have
69:55
that. You know, I’m in my life.
69:56
I do not. I know I don’t have
69:58
it anymore but I’ve had it. We
69:59
have to pay me to deal with the
70:01
drama. That’s how I became a
70:02
social worker. I’m going to
70:03
deal with. I’m going to get
70:03
paid for it. Other than that.
70:05
No, I got you. I got you. You
70:08
and I ask the question, why are
70:10
are we and why are some of us
70:13
attached to a lot of drama? It
70:14
because it makes us feel needed
70:16
and important. Yes. Yes. like
70:19
people who stay sick, they get
70:21
attention. They want that
70:23
attention. Oh, come on. You got
70:24
a real me around in a real
70:26
world. You gotta come on. You
70:27
know, when they get the
70:28
attention. So, when do we, when
70:30
do we allow ourselves to
70:34
realize that we actually
70:36
weren’t we we might have been
70:38
needed but we were just used a
70:41
trash receptacle to allow the
70:44
people to dump all of their
70:45
emotional BS on. Oh yeah.
70:48
Usually when it comes to
70:50
overwhelming, we figure it out.
70:51
I do Yeah. And what are some of
70:54
the practices and mechanisms
70:56
that that some of you, some of
70:58
you, some of us use when it
71:00
does become overwhelmed. What
71:01
do we do when it or does you
71:03
know, does it become
71:05
overwhelming? I turn my my
71:07
phone off and I meditate
71:14
I meditate to I breathe
71:16
meditate and pray. Don’t start
71:18
writing and journaling. I do a
71:20
little bit of everything.
71:21
Whatever the whatever that
71:22
scene calls for, y’all have to
71:25
excuse me. My phone may turn
71:26
off. I got no, it’s okay. It’s
71:27
okay. It’s okay. Thank you. The
71:32
importance of this
71:38
we get to choose the type of
71:41
emotional energy that we allow
71:43
in our environment. Yes, each
71:46
one of us has the choice So,
71:50
you get to choose. So, if
71:52
you’re Emotional, if your
71:54
environment is dramatic, It’s
71:58
your choice. Come on. That’s
72:01
right. That’s right. If your
72:03
environment is toxic, because
72:06
we get to, we get to choose. We
72:09
get to choose if we care. I
72:13
mean, not care if we give a,
72:15
you know, what or not. See, see
72:19
giving zero **** doesn’t mean
72:21
you don’t care. Mm huh? Huh?
72:24
Just means that you care about
72:26
you. more than that other
72:30
stuff. you. You will get to the
72:34
other but you gotta put you in
72:37
the number one spot.
72:38
Absolutely. Mm hmm. Mm hmm. You
72:41
**** with you in the number one
72:42
spot a little bit. You have to
72:44
put in the number one spot. Oh
72:46
my goddamn Wait. What about
72:49
now? So, that’s why I asked the
72:54
question, why do we consume
72:57
emotional drama? Some of us
72:59
drink it like it’s a forty
73:00
ounce or just bam just right to
73:02
the head. You know, a lot of it
73:05
has a generational curses. I
73:07
watched this. I’m a
73:10
documentary. I watched this
73:11
little documentary and this
73:13
lady was saying she said that
73:15
she went to pick her up from
73:17
school 1 day and this Caucasian
73:18
lady to her and was like, hey,
73:21
you have have to be so proud of
73:23
your son. He’s graduating
73:25
valedictorian of his class.
73:26
Like you just have to be so
73:27
proud. That’s a major
73:29
accomplishment and she was
73:30
like, yeah, man. He just get on
73:31
my nerves and he lazy and he
73:32
does and I’m proud but he’s
73:34
just annoying and she’s like,
73:36
what about you? You should be
73:37
proud of your son. He’s
73:38
graduating. So, auditorium of
73:39
his class. Aren’t you proud?
73:40
And she’s like, yeah, he’s
73:41
hardworking. He’s dedicated,
73:43
He’s funny, he’s a great guy
73:45
and she’s on her way home. She
73:46
thought about it. She was like,
73:47
dang, what did I say about my
73:49
son to this lady? Like, it was
73:50
so many other things I could’ve
73:52
said and she went and she
73:53
started to do some research and
73:54
she found out back on. Our
73:57
ancestors were on the
73:58
plantation on the slave master
74:00
would come out. They will look
74:01
for like the strongest,
74:04
tallest, biggest Bt, you know,
74:07
man on the field in order for
74:09
the mother to protect the
74:11
family, to keep the family
74:12
together so that the, you know,
74:13
the sun doesn’t get sold and
74:14
separated from the rest of the
74:16
family. She’ll be like, you
74:17
don’t want to be stupid or
74:18
lazy. Don’t do nothing like you
74:19
don’t go pick somebody else.
74:20
You don’t want him. Yeah And
74:22
that’s just kind of what
74:23
started out as a defense
74:24
mechanism trickled over the
74:25
years. To an abuse. technique.
74:31
So, like a lot of the things
74:32
that we experience with our
74:36
parents and their parents
74:37
experience with them like it
74:38
comes from generational curses
74:40
and we just have to become
74:41
aware of it and break that
74:43
pattern. Absolutely.
74:45
Absolutely. Absolutely. Thank
74:47
you for that. You’re welcome.
74:49
Anybody else? I still don’t
74:52
understand that. still, I
74:53
really don’t. Why would I put?
74:54
I understand because of course,
74:58
we will not living in the slave
75:00
times, right? It’s been years
75:02
old. you know, you know, and I
75:04
it’s it’s tiring. It’s tiring
75:08
to see the same thing because
75:10
people really not having this
75:12
conversation. So, I like coming
75:15
on here because it’s a
75:16
conversation that’s really
75:18
different, you know, and I like
75:20
it and it’s supportive as a
75:21
positive and you know, people
75:23
are not reaching out for those
75:25
new conversations and it’s
75:26
tiring and and it’s so What?
75:29
Can I see it? And it’s it’s
75:30
timing but I think I’m an
75:32
advocate and I and someone has
75:34
to be in the gap. Someone has
75:37
to say something different. You
75:38
know, it’s it’s tiring to hear
75:40
that. It’s sad. It is. It is.
75:44
It really is. Thank you for
75:47
that. Tamika. Do you have any
75:48
thoughts on that?
75:52
You know where I am, Honestly.
75:55
I’ve I’ve seen myself as quite
75:57
the anomaly and even if I were
75:59
to go back 20 years ago and I
76:03
think about, you know, the
76:05
example that you know, Honeybee
76:09
gave, I think I never agreed
76:13
with any of the mindset even
76:16
though I was not conditioned or
76:18
taught to think differently II
76:21
just had that in me when
76:22
especially when I have my own
76:24
children There’s no way I would
76:28
even think because again, it
76:31
was not talked about in my
76:32
household slavery and all that.
76:34
Yes, we talked about roots. We
76:36
watched the series as a family.
76:37
I was probably all of seven or
76:39
8 years old when it initially
76:41
started. My grandmother gave us
76:42
more information about her
76:44
relationship to hay. Then she
76:48
actually talked about slavery.
76:50
My grandfather had no words
76:52
about it. Unfortunately, my
76:55
family did focus on letting the
76:57
school educate us instead of us
77:00
having a familial conversations
77:03
about our heritage and our
77:04
background but those practices
77:05
that you know, this woman
77:07
speaking behalf of her
77:09
valedictorian son versus the
77:11
other woman’s salutatorian son
77:13
and then going back and
77:15
identifying, you know, where
77:16
it’s possible that she, you
77:18
know, is condition genetically
77:21
or however you want to say it.
77:23
I haven’t done enough
77:26
scientific, empirical study
77:28
research on my own to say that
77:29
I can concur with that type of
77:31
thinking. I do understand it.
77:33
It’s real. I have read about
77:36
post traumatic slave syndrome.
77:37
I do believe it is very real.
77:40
However, you know how I parent
77:42
my children, you know how I
77:44
parented my children much to
77:46
the chagrin of my own family.
77:48
Much to the chagrin of their
77:49
fathers.
77:52
to me.
77:53
I wanted them to see
77:55
from a different lens and not
77:57
from. oh, you know, and then my
77:59
thoughts of them were always
78:01
much higher than whatever it
78:03
was that any other society
78:06
could say that they’re supposed
78:08
to be because of what our
78:09
heritage is. Heritage So yeah,
78:11
I know it’s the the pathology
78:14
to me That’s the part where the
78:16
needs to happen and that’s
78:17
pretty much where my focus is
78:19
and you know, that’s the kind
78:20
of work that I have just I’ve
78:23
been implored to do. That’s
78:24
been my focus, My life, my
78:27
whole life is how to change the
78:29
mindset. You know, even if that
78:31
is something that we were
78:32
conditioned to learn in the
78:34
church in the household because
78:36
we’re black, it’s an assumption
78:37
that we are of Africans, you
78:40
know, of slavery and all those
78:41
things. It’s damaging, You
78:45
know, it is damaging and it’s
78:48
too late to take back the
78:49
impression that you gave that
78:51
woman about your valedictorian
78:53
son to her Luan. son. Yeah.
78:57
Both are accomplishments but it
78:59
takes a lot. You know it takes
79:02
a lot for a child especially
79:04
today with all of the
79:07
distractions and all of the
79:08
possibilities of what they
79:09
could be doing instead of
79:11
studying instead of being in
79:12
the AP classes instead of being
79:13
in the IV programs instead of
79:15
going to, you know, class at
79:17
530 in the morning so that you
79:19
can take an exam when you’re
79:20
only a ninth grade for a
79:22
college course. I mean, those
79:23
are things that You can’t
79:26
discount right? So, I just, I
79:30
find it very disheartening.
79:32
It’s it’s difficult to watch
79:33
television because of it and I
79:35
don’t and you know that This
79:38
is. it’s just a whole lot to
79:39
put into This is this would be
79:42
a show all by itself if you
79:44
were to focus there but yeah,
79:47
that’s my 20¢ worth as a
79:49
parent. Alright,
79:53
Alright. and queen, if you have
79:56
any any comments or or anything
79:58
you would like to add, I’m glad
79:59
that you’re here. Chime in if
80:01
you would. I think if my
80:03
daughter studied too, she’s
80:05
still living in New York in the
80:07
Bronx. She has two two masters.
80:09
I didn’t never tell her to go
80:11
get it. I showed her when I was
80:13
in class when I was in. I put
80:16
her in private school when I
80:17
had class. she saw what I went
80:20
to school, she saw, I studied.
80:22
I put her in a daycare my
80:23
college and I just took her so
80:26
she can see what her mama is
80:28
doing. Absolutely. and then
80:30
every time I tell her about
80:31
school and I was just sharing
80:33
with her. Yes. I just said she
80:35
still has my first literature
80:35
book. It’s like a 500 page. The
80:38
girl will not part with that
80:39
because it’s all lit of the
80:42
girl. She’s a writer. She’s not
80:43
meeting and I think we talk so
80:46
much without showing. We have
80:48
to take these kids before 911.
80:51
She was down down in Manhattan
80:53
in the museum in the library,
80:55
you know, Now, we have, you
80:58
know, the computers wrapping
81:00
up. It’s like strangling our
81:02
children. It’s so, it’s
81:04
terrible. It is, it is
81:07
different era, different time
81:09
but we have to as of now, we
81:11
have to really be the people we
81:13
gotta be showing. Absolutely.
81:15
That’s why we’re here. That’s
81:17
why. Yeah. And as a therapist,
81:18
I tell these mothers too. Oh.
81:20
oh, medication. that my child
81:22
is hyper hyper. I said, did you
81:25
find maybe, you know, you can
81:27
put them in dance class and gym
81:29
class and stuff like that but
81:30
they don’t want to spend money.
81:31
They don’t want to be They
81:33
don’t have to spend money on
81:34
Jordan’s. Yeah. Then putting
81:37
them in a dance class. No, it’s
81:39
not right. It’s not. I’m
81:41
telling you, it’s real. I’m
81:42
telling you, it is real. This
81:44
lady brought her kid in the
81:46
hospital looking for something
81:48
to calm him down and it’s all
81:49
she said, oh, she jumps on
81:51
furniture and backflips and all
81:54
this and and she doesn’t
81:55
realize what she’s saying.
81:56
She’s saying her answer. She’s
81:58
saying, what could help?
82:01
Absolutely great people on.
82:04
Thank you for that, Joann. Oh,
82:06
I’m going to shut up now. No
82:07
worries. No worries. Queen.
82:09
Queen. Go ahead. Go ahead. The
82:11
floor is yours.
82:17
I’m just listening today.
82:19
Absolutely. Thank you for being
82:21
here. Keep coming back. We we
82:22
we get it right every now and
82:23
again and we’re grateful for
82:25
your presence. Thank you very
82:26
much With that. I’m going to,
82:28
I’m going to wrap it up. We’ve
82:30
been I’ve been running off at
82:32
the mouth long enough but I
82:34
want to leave us with with this
82:37
one thought Don’t leave us with
82:42
this one. thought your first
82:45
obligation is to your soul.
82:50
yourself.
82:54
Everyone else gets in line
82:55
behind you.
82:59
Absolutely.
83:06
Your first obligation is to
83:08
your soul yourself, Everyone
83:11
else gets in line behind you.
83:14
I’m thankful for everybody. I’m
83:15
grateful There’s been a lovely
83:18
time. lovely time, and I’m
83:19
looking forward to
83:24
Tuesday’s show and then come
83:27
back. We’re going to have a
83:28
special new moon show on the
83:30
tenth. So, look for the Email
83:33
to come out for that or the
83:35
announcement on Facebook.
83:36
Anybody got any other
83:38
announcements? Anything going
83:39
on with anybody that want to
83:41
let everybody know? you can let
83:42
the whole know. We’re on
83:45
Facebook. Oh, shoot. You’re on
83:47
Facebook. Yes, we are. Oh,
83:50
shoot. I didn’t know that. Oh
83:52
my god. You know, Jolene, you
83:54
know, I always go live. Oh, I
83:58
see. I haven’t been on my, I
83:59
haven’t been on Facebook in a
84:01
while. so I forget. Oh ****
84:04
It’s okay. I gotta find it on
84:06
Facebook. you have. are you and
84:09
I friends on the book? No, I
84:13
would have to go to the
84:14
computer and find me and but
84:16
don’t worry about it. Don’t
84:17
worry about it. You know, we
84:18
need. Oh, yes, I know we’re on
84:20
LinkedIn, I found you on
84:21
LinkedIn. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
84:22
When you get a chance, just
84:24
when you get a chance, Alright,
84:26
Anybody else? Oh, will you be
84:29
on Tuesday? Will you be going
84:30
over the rest of the of the
84:34
sevens. Oh, yes. Yes. Yeah. I’m
84:36
going to. We’re going to we
84:38
we’ve already hit a few of the
84:40
we we talked about the
84:42
spiritual selves, the physical
84:44
self, the mental Self, we’re on
84:47
Emotional Self then we’re going
84:48
to jump into the intellectual
84:50
self and the financial self and
84:51
the Sexual Self. Yeah, just
84:53
keep coming back. We’ll be here
84:54
every Tuesday and Saturday.
84:55
I’ll I’ll break it all down.
85:00
Thank you all for for being
85:02
here. Be kind to yourselves.
85:09
and each other. See you guys on
85:13
Tuesday. Goodbye for now.
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Mark Edward Pyle
Mark Edward Pyle is a Mastered Self Initiate and Soul (Karma) Reader, with 40 years of study and Master Level experience with Numerology, Astrology, Card Sciences (Standard & Tarot). Mark has perfected his craft by reading, compiling and analyzing 1,000’s of people and business/civic/governmental entities. Mark believes we are more than our Western Astrology Sun Sign and created and developed new ways in how you look at your daily/weekly/monthly & yearly horoscope.
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